Anxiety Overload

[NarcSis]

Hugs to you, it looks like everyone is giving some good advice. Do Your Research. Very, very important. Speak to the doctors, the assistants, online search for others who've had similar surgeries - the more knowledge you have the more you'll be able to make an informed decision; like KwanYingirl says, 12 years is a long time in terms of medical advancement and you have to be open to the idea that the way the surgery is performed has perhaps changed.

Also, as a person with mental illness, it is your right to be treated with compassion and sensitivity during procedures of this magnitude. If you can set up meetings with the surgical team or surgical support team to discuss your issues, then you can take back some of the control over this procedure that you feel you have lost.

Deep breaths. Positive actions. You'll get through this. :)

 

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Apologies If I have confused anyone. I have already had this surgery once 12 years ago. I am totally aware of the procedure. My paranoia state now is much different to that 12 years ago. I was paranoid then about going blind as my older three children were then 6 yrs, 4 yrs and 2 yrs old. Facing the prospect of blindness then was bad enough.

Faced with the reality that I have only held my youngest son for no more than at max 30 minutes since he was born June 2nd last year I am terrified that if access is withheld and my eyesight deteriorates of anything goes wrong with the surgery I then will not be able to see him ever again.

This fact scared me to tears.

Apologies again if I have confused anyone on this thread.

Laurie