Can't Fight The Suicidal Thoughts

[Alibongo]

Thank u for ur replies. I have absolutely no idea what I need that's the problem. Maybe I just need to talk to one one about it. I tried a helpline before but they made me worse by asking lots of triggering questions. I don't know what I expect u guys to do but I didn't know who else to speak tho-no body understands.

 

[BlueOrange]

What can we do to try and help you feel a bit better?

When someone is having a crisis, it's often really difficult for them to know what they need. There are some useful starting points on the MHFA website: Mental Health First Aid Guidelines | Mental Health First Aid

It can be quite distressing to see that someone needs help and to feel powerless - a thread in the Supporter area is a useful way to reduce the chances that the person going through the crisis gets distracted from their own needs.

 

[Alibongo]

When someone is having a crisis, it's often really difficult for them to know what they need. There...

I'm sorry I know u all have ur own stuff going on x

 

[BlueOrange]

I'm sad to hear that crisis lines are difficult for you to use. If you feel able to talk specifically about how it went wrong, then that may help to defuse things. Your T definitely needs to know about those difficulties.

Would it feel safe to talk to your parents about this and/or get them to read this thread?

 

[Justmehere]

My T thinks this is me getting better and wants to discharge me (see previous post) however things just spiralled this week when my friend lost her baby and a colleague died.

In the other post, you mentioned your therapist is encouraging you to see a psychiatrist. That indicates she actually thinks you need more care.

my parents after surgery on my foot. Now the suicidal thoughts have come back-even stopped taking my painkillers in case I needed them for my attempt.

I highly suggest contacting the therapist and any or all doctors involved in your care and let them know of the steps you have taken towards ending your life and to let them know how deeply you are struggling.

Suddenly stopping meds even for other conditions could be part of why the thoughts are suddenly back, in addition to the other stressors and triggers. Pain med withdrawals, even after just one day of taking them, can increase depression.

Also, check out dbtselfhelp.com and look into the section on distress tolerance. This has been super helpful for me to endure suicidal thoughts.

Your friends may not know how to help sucidial thoughts - but what about contacting them to do something like watch a movie together or something else where you are not alone and simply spending time with others. Part of what helps people get through rough spots like this is making it harder for themselves to act while they get through enduring the thoughts. Being with people and making it harder to act on the heights will actually help your brain to not resort to the thoughts as the solution.

So sorry you are hurting so much. :hug:

 

[BlueOrange]

I'm sorry I know u all have ur own stuff going on x

Those of us who are replying to this thread are doing it because we want to help. I take better care of myself when I help others.

Some of us haven't had a lot of practice helping in these kinds of situations. Everybody needs 'help at giving help' sometimes, too. I don't think anyone should be asking you for help at this moment - I'm confident that you'll help when you can, but I think you'll need to be a bit more stable first.

 

[Alibongo]

I'm sad to hear that crisis lines are difficult for you to use. If you feel able to talk specificall...

When I phoned I told them I was having thoughts but she just asked me if I'd seen any bodies and if I helped anyone - I couldn't and I feel so guilty about that. There's no way I could tell my parents it would break their hearts.

Thank u justmehere I'm not on any meds but I think she wants me to go on them. Edit-just realised what u meant-i kept the string painkillers and replaced with milder ones. I will look at that link thanks. I'm going to see a friend tomorrow so hopefully that will help.

I really appreciate all ur help x

 

[Gs172003]

When I phoned I told them I was having thoughts but she just asked me if I'd seen any bodies and if I...

We're here to help each other :)

 

[BlueOrange]

Those don't sound like typical questions from a suicide crisis line - they certainly don't sound like good questions.

When you rang last time, did you say "I'm thinking about suicide" or did the conversation have a different focus?

Would you be able to ring and say "The last time I rang, the person asked me questions about the traumatic event, and I felt worse and hung up on them. I have a therapist, and I only need help with the suicidal thoughts until I see them next week."?

 

[Alibongo]

Those don't sound like typical questions from a suicide crisis line - they certainly don't sound lik...

I said that I had made a promise with my T to stay safe but that I didn't know if I could keep it. Maybe I wasn't clear enough. I found another number I could try that but it's awkward as I don't have much privacy at the moment

 

[Gs172003]

I said that I had made a promise with my T to stay safe but that I didn't know if I could keep it. May...

This one has an online chat. Would you be willing to do that?
Home

Directly to the chat

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

 

[Alibongo]

This one has an online chat. Would you be willing to do that?

thank u missy. Don't think it works as I'm outside of the US.
I'll call the number I have. Thank u all for ur help. I hope I haven't spoiled ur day/night x