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Rani G2

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was very high-maintenance as I entered adulthood. My mother stopped parenting when I was about 10 and kicked me out at 12. Between that and a whole lot of other trauma, I was not ready to adult, and I very insecure, clingy, needy, extremely anxious, paranoid, etc.
That’s devastating when a child has to live through so much pain and neglect and survive in a world that’s mostly hostile.. I’m reading that you have a good and stable relationship with your husband.. that’s when healing happen I guess! Thanks for sharing.. began to live in boarding schools when I was 9 and Nuns were able to live their passive aggressiveness while punishing kids, plus my second caregiver being Bipolar things were fun as well..

to that if only because I don't recognize myself as being particularly bright, and so when other people don't get near to my standards but appear proud of their work, I think they are being arrogant and lazy.
You mentioned stubbornness, and that’s something which I do admire when people sit down despite feeling unwell and learn , learn because they have a goal, a vision or whatever. From what you’ve written so far you seem to have that willingness.. can you send me a portion of that? I belong to those who whine around and waiting to be encouraged.

do have a lot of empathy for people and what they go through. It feels very much like I should have shut down
Sometimes you might need temporary respite, people might not always value noble characteristics? Due to my insecurities I tend to expect others to be thankful if I help them. If they don’t I become a bit aggressive, (Like a child..). Have to constantly reflect, keep that inner dialog.. if I’m honest I dislike most humans (Only my husband and mom) Id like to hide and only be with robots, technology and books 😜

Are you going to do any lunges, then?
Urghhh not sure about that.. I’m lazy today. You did them anyway.. woooh :-) thats toughness
How is work going, btw? I know you were struggling quite a lot about a month ago. It
Really hate going to work, when I’m there it’s doable, and somehow I get through, back at home I distract myself and suffer now and then, Do yoga and a little meditation.. the only thing which keeps me sane is my physicality and my health.

Im also tired to think about doing anything else...

Hope your Hike was good yesterday ?
 

Rani G2

MyPTSD Pro
On the other hand, if you give me a student or someone with an intellectual disability to work with, I do great.
That requires brightness, skill and tenacity.. I know you know that, I just felt like pointing out again.

Mental illness? Appear mentally healthy -- that's how you maintain employment. It is not quite right.
There are a lot attempts to homogenize people’s experiences, those who have gone through trauma have disorders and are labeled as pathological, rather than making the efforts to see the whole picture, individuals are asked (Asked by whom? .. one could argue) to do their best to heal and function despite toxic environments (Ofcourse no one lives in Disneyland and that’s not how the world works, we can’t expect conditions to be always good) But I think I won’t get into that.. so much misunderstandings when people feel their individual pursuit to do better is being less valued.. I think it’s hard for me to explain.. you can ignore this because it won’t make much sense.. 😅
 

Rani G2

MyPTSD Pro
Fragile brain today.. quite depressed, laying around and feeling horrible.. it’s hard for me when the narrative goes:

We all die so why bother? It’s all suffering.com

The shifting happens very very slowly..
 

RussellSue

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I’m reading that you have a good and stable relationship with your husband
I think so. That said, I am going to get back to the above, but I am not around much on weekends because I am hanging out with my husband. I hate leaving people hanging...
Enjoy your weekend! 🐳
 
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