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[Invisible Fire]

No I do therapy in person. Glad you are done with work for the day and can distract yourself with things. No plans for the weekend. Lots of snow and freezing temperatures. Probably books and puzzles. How about you are you still going to therapy?

 

[Rani G2]

Do you go once a week? Yes.. Im on once a week..
You mentioned beautiful snowy sceneries over there?! Enjoy..
Im emotionally flat.. avoiding humans and watching out of the window

 

[Invisible Fire]

Do you go once a week? Yes.. Im on once a week..
You mentioned beautiful snowy sceneries over there?! Enjoy..
Im emotionally flat.. avoiding humans and watching out of the window

yes I go weekly. Been thinking about taking a break then another layer is moved and I don't feel well enough for a break.
I can relate emotionally flat and avoiding humans. We have about 6 inches of snow and it was a heavy wet snow yesterday. Large flakes. Very pretty. But, then the temp dropped and now its all frozen and a icy mess. But, Still pretty to look at...

 

[Rani G2]

We have about 6 inches of snow and it was a heavy wet snow yesterday. Large flakes. Very pretty. But, then the temp dropped and now its all frozen and a icy mess

Sounds beautiful..

Been thinking about taking a break then another layer is moved and I don't feel well enough for a break.

Layers and layers being uncovered.. it’s hard to process also..

 

[Rani G2]

Soft white underbelly from mark Laita, really hits my heart, there are stories familiar to me..

 

[Survivor3]

Soft white underbelly from mark Laita, really hits my heart, there are stories at times familiar to mine..

 

[Rani G2]

It’s hard, when I remember how nuns use to punish me with having to kneel down, or being locked in a basement, or cleaning floors, or being humiliated for having wounds on my head..
remember abuse by unknown men..
remember my bio father trying to kill my mom and my stepfather saying that I’m a piece of shit, and it’s okay for me to sleep in the kitchen for years
Memories arising..

 

[Rani G2]

thanks @Survivor3

 

[Survivor3]

It’s hard, when I remember how nuns use to punish me with having to kneel down, or being locked in a basement, or cleaning floors, or being humiliated for having wounds on my head..
remember abuse by unknown men..
remember my bio father trying to kill my mom and my stepfather saying that I’m a piece of shit, and it’s okay for me to sleep in the kitchen for years
Memories arising..

These things that you experienced are horrible. No one should have to experience that. And these people are assholes. You've managed to reclaim your life and even have a job and married. These memories are painful I know.

 

[Invisible Fire]

Those memories sounds horrible, painful. I'm sorry you had to experience that. People can be so cruel. Memories bubbling up can be overwhelming. Hope you can stay grounded.

 

[Rani G2]

It’s hard to tell... my stepfather had bipolar, he used to make me sit down for hours and eat smarties with folk and knife perfectly, he was psychotic also..
I‘m struggling on some days.. and to be honest, there are days when I want to give up..

But, I’m having a loving and kind husband and I’m a also a lovely lady, whose kinda charismatic (Yes Ego issues due to inferiority... poor me)


Hope your evening is good @Survivor3 ? What’s on the plate today? Any plans for the weekend? Horrormovies?

 

[Survivor3]

I had sandwiches and chicken chow mein earlier. Listening to the radio atm. Maybe watch the tv later, could be horror movies.