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Well I keep stating my goal to regularly post to the forum as a beneficial tool for my sanity, but time and time again, distractions, interruptions, my health and other events overwhelm me and I lose sight of what I need to do to remain sane.
Not beating my self up though as somehow through it all I seem to remain fairly stable and I believe within a reasonable definition of sane. Though I am still not sure how I manage to do so.
While we are only three months into the year, I am cautiously optimistic of a better year than the previous few years. I say that I am "cautiously optimistic" because I am under no illusion as to the nature of PTSD and it is never wise to underestimate the insidious nature of this condition.
That is not to say that there has not been a few incidents to date, last month we had a few weeks that included two overdoses, overnight stay in Emergency Dept, three nights in the local public Psych ward and two days of having to dose him to prevent self harm. On top of that in the last few weeks there has been a couple of anger incidents which I averted before they could cause any harm to either of us.
He seems fairly stable at the present time, which is something I was in dire need of as my health has not been great and the stress just makes things worse. To add not just to my stress but also to my husbands, our youngest son who was 12 last month and suffers from mild Aspergers Syndrome, was affected badly by his 14yo sister going to live with her grandparents in QLD last December and his behaviour became more difficult to manage than usual. This caused a catch 22 like situation in the household between my husband and son, who both have little idea of how to deal with each other when they are not managing their conditions optimally and had my 16 yo daughter and I ducking for cover at regular intervals. The situation with my son has also settled a great deal over the past few weeks with is a huge relief for all, my son included.
Now, at least for the moment, there seems to be a lull, weather it is that the storm has past or it is just the eye, I am trying to focus on making the best of the situation and not focusing on when the hammer may next fall.
I do hope that it keeps up for as long as possible as my daughter is doing her HSC this year and needs all the peace and stability she can get.
So much more I wanted to post but it has taken me the greater part of today and tonight to get this much down so I will just have to be satisfied with what I can get rather than what I would like.
I hope everyone else is doing ok.
Not beating my self up though as somehow through it all I seem to remain fairly stable and I believe within a reasonable definition of sane. Though I am still not sure how I manage to do so.
While we are only three months into the year, I am cautiously optimistic of a better year than the previous few years. I say that I am "cautiously optimistic" because I am under no illusion as to the nature of PTSD and it is never wise to underestimate the insidious nature of this condition.
That is not to say that there has not been a few incidents to date, last month we had a few weeks that included two overdoses, overnight stay in Emergency Dept, three nights in the local public Psych ward and two days of having to dose him to prevent self harm. On top of that in the last few weeks there has been a couple of anger incidents which I averted before they could cause any harm to either of us.
He seems fairly stable at the present time, which is something I was in dire need of as my health has not been great and the stress just makes things worse. To add not just to my stress but also to my husbands, our youngest son who was 12 last month and suffers from mild Aspergers Syndrome, was affected badly by his 14yo sister going to live with her grandparents in QLD last December and his behaviour became more difficult to manage than usual. This caused a catch 22 like situation in the household between my husband and son, who both have little idea of how to deal with each other when they are not managing their conditions optimally and had my 16 yo daughter and I ducking for cover at regular intervals. The situation with my son has also settled a great deal over the past few weeks with is a huge relief for all, my son included.
Now, at least for the moment, there seems to be a lull, weather it is that the storm has past or it is just the eye, I am trying to focus on making the best of the situation and not focusing on when the hammer may next fall.
I do hope that it keeps up for as long as possible as my daughter is doing her HSC this year and needs all the peace and stability she can get.
So much more I wanted to post but it has taken me the greater part of today and tonight to get this much down so I will just have to be satisfied with what I can get rather than what I would like.
I hope everyone else is doing ok.
