Mach123
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I always have played the guitar. I used to beat on it lol. My wife said she used to hate listening to me because I was beating on it which I passed through and I "let myself" play it. I doubt if I'll ever play it in front of anyone? Stage fright. During lockdown however I got an idea I wanted to take the time and play it which I have. Right now 2 hours continuous "practice" which I don't even really know what that means since I'm in charge, is nothing. Not only that, I like it. Can i say that? I'm accomplishing something, more than playing a video game for instance which I gave up so I could play my instrument instead, and I like it. Naturally I feel guilty. Doing anything you want to do and be good at for me is all or nothing because if I let anything else interfere, I won't do it. But I'm in love. I play it and I really give myself to it. My wife says she doesn't mind hearing me play it anymore and other compliments, not always, but often enough. I like to play it in the third person meaning I like people to listen when I'm in the other room so I'm not really an active participant, like background or elevator music. Anyway I decided once we locked down I was going to study the modes of the major scale and i did it. I am working on "shred" and I need an electric guitar to do that really but I'm doing it anyway on the acoustic because I "just do it and it plays itself". I'm the vehicle, that's all. Whatever i can play is because the guitar lets me or it taught me. But I gave it my time during lockdown and It's payed off. : )
In spite of it all, has it resulted in anything good? If not I hope it will.
In spite of it all, has it resulted in anything good? If not I hope it will.