Daughter's wedding coming up

[CdnCopper]

My oldest daughter's wedding is coming up. I've developed a lot of anxiety and avoid crowds at all costs. The last time I was in a crowd was at her grad 4 years ago. I was an absolute mess. I had an anxiety attack and couldn't stop sweating. I looked like I just came out of a pool.

Needless I to say I had to leave and missed most of it. I felt horrible and embarrassed.

I don't want to go through that again but I'm not sure what I'm going to do to get around it. Perhaps some sort of temporary meds will help.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Me too! My daughters wedding is in May 150 People. I am excited for them by already exhausted just thinking about it.

 

[Friday]

Perhaps some sort of temporary meds will help.

That’s what I do. I don’t take medication regularly, but I have 2 kinds of emergency meds. Shut the f*ck up, get DOWN... and stay there! meds ;) and no one could tell I’m on anything / normal life looking meds. Both are addictive as hell, or I’d take the second kind a lot more often. Shrug. So I don’t. I take them in advance of big deal things. <<< I ALSO took them fairly randomly, to get used to them & me on them. Then there’s also booze, which is a very very distant 3rd and never ever ever ever gets mixed in with the pills. To the point I’ve turned down scotch & cigars with someone I only see once a damn decade it seems (I had a cigar & a coke) because I’d taken them the day before (damn fool surprised me, or I’d have sweated and shook through the thing yesterday to be able to kick back & bullshit with him). Mixing pills and booze is a bad idea most of the time, anyway, but with these it pretty much guarantees instant addiction if they don’t kill you outright. Not a lot kills me, but I like having these suckers in my back pocket, so to speak, and would hate to lose them because I’ve picked up a habit. Seen that take out far too many good people. Not gonna even start to go there. So if I’m drinking? Docs say 8 hours between, but I space 24-72. Kinda the inverse of how I listen to docs about injuries. :sneaky: (Wha??? <gimp gimp> I’m fine! <gimp hobble crash> Totally fine.)

 

[CdnCopper]

Yeah I'm kinda leaning towards something temp although with my past battles with alcohol and drug addiction from self medicating I'm hoping it won't bring those demons back.

Ah, a good single malt and good a cigar. How I do miss that heavenly combination!

 

[KwanYingirl]

@CdnCopper whens your daughters wedding? We will have to support each other!! I’ll keep my phone nearby. My daughters getting married at a camp in the Poconos a 7 hour drive from my home-ugh! Then I have to sleep in a bunk room because I can’t stay in motels due to my chemical sensitivities. They’ll be spraying for mosquitos and ticks and there’s always a chance that I’ll end up at the hospital with pesticide poisoning. I’m not angry though because they do need to deter or kill the bugs especially ticks. They have Lyme Disease there. They have the camp Friday-Sunday so we’re trying to plan hikes and crafts for the young children. My anxiety stems from not liking to be in crowds. I’m not good at chit chat. My daughter knows how I am and she’ll be fine if I leave early. I have Xanax and sonata to get me through. I’m going to stockpile some extra in case the drunks wake us up in the middle of the night. My daughter is used to me disappearing if overwhelmed.

 

[CdnCopper]

October! Sounds like a plan. We'll keep each other company!