Ok so I'm having emdr and I have a memory and I want to say - I can feel his hands on me - or I can feel the feeling of his *horrible 'stuff'* on me like it's sticky or I can feel him touching or doing x or y. But I can't so I just say I can't say it. But I feel like I need to be able to say it to move past it and also to not feel alone.
Tell me there are people out there who have actually said proper works about sex stuff that is horrible to their therapists. I was a child too so I feel like maybe it's harder to say because I'm in that child headspace feeling vulnerable when I'm processing. I feel like if I could say it I'd connect with it more and then move on more. I hate myself for still being bothered and affected by this stuff.
Tell me there are people out there who have actually said proper works about sex stuff that is horrible to their therapists. I was a child too so I feel like maybe it's harder to say because I'm in that child headspace feeling vulnerable when I'm processing. I feel like if I could say it I'd connect with it more and then move on more. I hate myself for still being bothered and affected by this stuff.