Fed Up With The Rollercoaster Of Emotion

[KP the nut]

I did my second morning at work and again it went well. I didn't drive as H tokk me and picked me up - he needed his car. So a long weekend in prospect. I've just had lunch in the garden and feel relaxed and shattered.

I will sit outside a bit more, have a nap and bake H a birthday cake for tomorrow.

I am back at work on Monday, Wed and Fri mornings, although there is an evening meeting next Thursday, which I'd like to attend. If I do I won't work Fri morning - pace myself.

I only have about 6 session of T left. T has recommended I see my GP and be re referred for further sessions. I have already had more than authorised - usually it is 20 sessions but T will put an extra 6 in. I'm pleased, I feel if I stopped now I'd be in limbo.

 

[KP the nut]

Yesterday was the most amazing day I have had since the accident. I enjoyed it so much AND I was 'there and with it' all day. Now even a slight disassocoation. It was Hs birthday, he loved his present, a biltong (similar to beef jerky) maker from me and jelly beans from the dogs.

H asked me what I wanted to do (bless him), now given the choice I'd stay at home. But no, I made the effort - we went for a walk and sat by the river and had a picnic, and the dogs came. It was so peaceful.

H went for a nap and I decorated his cake and made supper. I made meatballs from scratch and if I say it myself they were excellent. Before supper, we went to the top of the garden and drank champagne and played cribbage again just so relaxing. Then supper and cake.

This morning I felt so lazy so stayed in bed until v late. Then I showered and we did village shopping. I even bought myself some flowers something I'd stopped doing but now I'm beginning to feel I deserve a treat.

How am I feeling now - pretty damn good:inlove:

 

[Reclusive]

It is so uplifting for me to read your posts, Kath! I'm so glad to hear that you're doing so well and everything is progressing the way that it should! :D Keep posting as your posts bring a smile to my face.

 

[Brontie]

Me too. So glad. You definitely come across like you got a handle on things. I’m so pleased for you.

Continue to create time for those peaceful activities, they are so healing.

All that AND flowers. !! Good for you.

I love buying myself flowers. It’s often a good gauge to how I’m feeling.

 

[OKRADLAK]

What a great gift! A good day!! And I hope there will be many more until it is just a GOOD LIFE!! Keep going and trusting and hoping. It makes me feel so good to read about recovery and how it can be done. :D

 

[AngelaMarie]

Kath, you are just awesome!!! Never forget that!!!;)

 

[KP the nut]

So I went to work this morning again. H had to drive me and pick me up as my car is still illegal. Hopefully it will be certified roadworthy tomorrow, without it costing me a fortune.

Work was good. I met with my manager and basically I'll spend the next couple of weeks doing not a lot. Helping colleagues and seeing projects and colleagues to say bye. I feel so tired though, I should sleep tonight.

Off track slightly but I found something good about nightmares. To dream/nightmare you must be in REM sleep. The body needs REM sleep which means even in a nightmare we are doing our bodies good. I'm going to try and thank my nightmare next time and tell it it is helping my body recover - or maybe I'm finally cracking up :roflmao:

So tomorrow is big car repair day :mad:. I will have a curtesy car but I am hoping my car will be fit and well tomorrow night.

I am taking it one day at a time as I have a busy week and H is away Tues and Wed night.

Linking arms
KP

 

[Lucygirl]

Could someone please tell me what EMDR stands for on this site?

Thanks!

 

[KP the nut]

tell me what EMDR stands for on this site?

Eye Movement Desensitising and Reprocessing

It is a CBT therapy

 

[Lucygirl]

Thanks!

 

[KP the nut]

I hate this illness. How can you go from upbeat, calm and at peace to anxious and triggered :mad:.

All because I replied to a post by Anthony :confused:. 'Have you kept stuff from your T' - yes. Not about the accident but something from childhood, which has made me deserve what I am now :cry:

 

[KP the nut]

On the plus side, the car is now legal again. It passed its MOT :D. That and a full service coming in at under £280 is fabulous news. OK, so I haven't paid for it yet, the garage is good and will wait till pay day on the 20th :inlove:. The owner lives opposite me so if I don't pay up I've told him he can break my windows :roflmao:

I am so pleased to have my car back :confused:. I only drove the curtesy car back to the garage about 300 yards and my shoulder was so sore. It didn't have power steering and I struggled to turn the wheel