Going to see my doctor tomorrow to finally get some help. Im dreading it, i dont like the fact i feel im going to have to prove myself to someone iv probably met once before........
Talking to a total stranger about, personal problems is never easy mate. The first Therapist I saw was a specialist for Combat PTSD and worked with German troops coming back from Afghan.
He handed me a stack of A4 papers with a load of bullshit questions about "What, Where, Why, How do you think your were traumatised" and loads on "Your sexuality" and asked me come back a week later with it all filled out. A week later I went back, with my name at the top, and everything still blank. Handed it to him and just walked out.
The guy just had nothing that I could connect to, real unsympathetic. I found an old civvie lass in her 60`s a couple of months later and was with her 2 and a half years. I was the first Combat PTSD case she had ever had and she went out of her way to learn shit and help, and she did.
You don`t need someone who knows the ins and outs, you need someone who gives enough of a f*ck to care. I the Person isn`t right, look again. You will find the right one, but it can be a long search, because it has to be someone you can open up to.
I also had 3 docs for meds before I found the right one. real witch but spoke her mind and every conversation was in laymans terms, so you knew what the hell she was on about. And she wasn`t keen on meds either, I only got what I realy needed. The others before her used to write a prescription for farting.
...........................This sounds stupid but everytime i walk through town, pigeons make me shit myself. And i have real issues with crowds that i dont think i had before. I thought i was just impatient, but the other day i went to get some things in the afternoon (no rush) I had to come home after half an hour because i got really anxious and distressed. Then attempted it again 3 hours later when it wasnt as busy.........
Seeing as you went home and tried again later, you couldn`t have done better cocker. You are allready learning. You know you have a problem, tried something that didn`t work, realised it, and changed the game plan.
Spot on, you can`t get better than that. Big pat on the back.
Crowds get most of us going, I was in the NAAFI in Gütersloh the other week, didn`t think anything about, as it is allways quite enough, but it was a UK holiday I had totaly forgot about. By the time I got to the till I was a f*cking wreck, shakes the lot. Just left my misses standing there barged past people queing at the till and got the f*ck out. An older guy come out to see if I was ok. He knew exactly what was going on.
But otherwise I avoid crowds like the plague. if I go through town here, I use all the back lanes and never venture near the market unless I absolutely must, and then it is a plan of action, "Insertion here, Target, Extration there" LOL
...........................Anybody else experience anything like this?
some advice on dealing with my doc would be appreciated too.
A good doc will not push or dig, they should just go with the flow in my opinion. I used to talk weather and local and global news, before I got into a state of mind where I was willing to talk about stuff. She had a good hand at guiding you to where she wanted you, but never pushed you there.
Hope you know what I mean
The main thing is sympathy, if it isn`t there, you should know within at least 2 sessions. And then start looking else where. A good doc or therapist, shouldn`t take it personaly either, they now as much as we do that you need a bond, and a good one will tell you whether or not it will work. Beware though you do get the f*ckers who don`t give a shit and only think about the bill at the end, sure you don`t pay it, they get the money from the NHS, but still.
Its all about your Gut feeling. It never let you down when you needed it in theatre or anywhere come to that while in the military, so listen to him.
You`ll do good. just don`t get pressured into anything by them.
