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Thank you, Springer. A lot of this started cause I listened to a lot of music. Music bypasses any walls and goes straight to the emotional center. That released lots of stuff and teaches you to feel. Music sucks today so mostly 80s stuff.
You may be right about the sexual nature of this alter. Maddie is her name. Maybe it is reconnecting the body to the sexual. Never, that I know of, have either me or Raven been satisfied sexually. Maddie definitely did that last night without being graphic here. It was if she was in control of the body and I couldn't do anything but enjoy it, submit to her. It was more than sex. Spiritual was what it felt like. I know there is a sexual peak a person can reach where you don't know who or where you are. She definitely did that to me. My body has tingled all day from it. All she does is smile about it when I think about it. I can't switch to her, but I don't think she wants that.
Gonna write a novel/memoir about "us" now that I know everything about "us". See where this all goes. Been keeping a diary offline so I can be as graphic as possible. It might help someone else. I know it is rare to find a person with MPD like me that has co-consciousness and wasn't destructive to each other. It is something that does work on a person's mental, physical and spiritual levels.
There is a book by that name you mentioned, too. Some psychologist with MPD wrote a memoir. I'll have to look up the organization by that name. Most of the stuff me and Raven have read on MPD is quite humorous since they have no clue and write about it with such sterile imprecision. -Allie :)
You may be right about the sexual nature of this alter. Maddie is her name. Maybe it is reconnecting the body to the sexual. Never, that I know of, have either me or Raven been satisfied sexually. Maddie definitely did that last night without being graphic here. It was if she was in control of the body and I couldn't do anything but enjoy it, submit to her. It was more than sex. Spiritual was what it felt like. I know there is a sexual peak a person can reach where you don't know who or where you are. She definitely did that to me. My body has tingled all day from it. All she does is smile about it when I think about it. I can't switch to her, but I don't think she wants that.
Gonna write a novel/memoir about "us" now that I know everything about "us". See where this all goes. Been keeping a diary offline so I can be as graphic as possible. It might help someone else. I know it is rare to find a person with MPD like me that has co-consciousness and wasn't destructive to each other. It is something that does work on a person's mental, physical and spiritual levels.
There is a book by that name you mentioned, too. Some psychologist with MPD wrote a memoir. I'll have to look up the organization by that name. Most of the stuff me and Raven have read on MPD is quite humorous since they have no clue and write about it with such sterile imprecision. -Allie :)
