Theasylumsystem
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I hate this feeling. I just got snapped at by one of my friends at school. I was doing some work which involves putting up posters and taking pictures of people within our college program (for the posters) I had asked them several times which person on the poster they'd like to be and two days ago they had responded that they would be on the poster but they didn't know where and today when I tried to talk to them about it they snapped at me saying they already told me they didn't want to be on it.
I already have been having a bad PTSD day so maybe it's just me being oversensitive but it really really hurt. I feel like I've been excessively annoying and it only validates the feeling I've had of our friendship is over or drawing to a close. It's just... I know I shouldn't care friendships come and go but it hurts. Knowing that these people that became a part of my support group no longer really care and that I'm a burden to them. It just.. hurts.
I also know that they're both going through their own things but I don't know... to be snapped at so harshly and discarded and the normal "friendly bullying" we do now feels like it's gotten malicious I just... I don't know what to do or to say to fix this. or if I even can. I just... I hurt.
I already have been having a bad PTSD day so maybe it's just me being oversensitive but it really really hurt. I feel like I've been excessively annoying and it only validates the feeling I've had of our friendship is over or drawing to a close. It's just... I know I shouldn't care friendships come and go but it hurts. Knowing that these people that became a part of my support group no longer really care and that I'm a burden to them. It just.. hurts.
I also know that they're both going through their own things but I don't know... to be snapped at so harshly and discarded and the normal "friendly bullying" we do now feels like it's gotten malicious I just... I don't know what to do or to say to fix this. or if I even can. I just... I hurt.