Getting the message - Going through life alone

[user56652]

I don't know if this will ring any bells but I'm putting it out there.

Trying to recover from trauma involves finding a support network. That's something I've never had. I've gone through life pretty much on my own and every achievement Ive gained has been a hollow one because the warmth of friendship is something Ive never had.

I have a home, a degree and no financial issues. I'm single (not through choice) and have total freedom. Many would say "man i wish my life was like yours" and I would say "the life I have is a lonely one"

My loneliness cripples me emotionally and I have fallen into the trap again and again of latching on to anyone that has shown me even a modicum of sympathy and I've misread signals over and over again

I've lost count of the number of times I've been lectured into how to behave and i shudder at the treatment I got so much so that I'm a nervous wreck every time I'm out of the house or communicate even online posting like this scares the shit out of me.

Ive come to the realisation that there are very few people in this world for me (family) and that the world is a f*cking awful place so I have decided to plough through lfie the best I can and make things bearable.

As I said I don't know if anyone will relate to this but I just wanted to get it off my chest.

 

[Survivor3]

Hi @Imbroglio I can relate to that, I spent most of my life alone. It was very scary. I now have friends and count myself lucky. I was a very scared person. I also would misread signals from other people and kitchen onto people getting into relationships. What's your degree in?

 

[user56652]

Hi @Imbroglio I can relate to that, I spent most of my life alone. It was very scary. I now have friends and count myself lucky. I was a very scared person. I also would misread signals from other people and kitchen onto people getting into relationships. What's your degree in?

Combined Studies.

 

[user56652]

5.50 this morning. Sitting at the desk clutching my head and close to tears, so fed up of the pain.

 

[arfie]

Ive come to the realisation that there are very few people in this world for me (family) and that the world is a f*cking awful place so I have decided to plough through lfie the best I can and make things bearable.

i relate loud and clear, imbroglio, though i have been married more than half my 71 years. i tend to feel more lonely in a crowd than i do when i am alone.

Trying to recover from trauma involves finding a support network.

this realization was my turning point. healing began when i stopped trying to climb a lifeline which was attached only to my own belt and/or expecting family to serve as therapists.

 

[user56652]

i relate loud and clear, imbroglio, though i have been married more than half my 71 years. i tend to feel more lonely in a crowd than i do when i am alone.

this realization was my turning point. healing began when i stopped trying to climb a lifeline which was attached only to my own belt and/or expecting family to serve as therapists.

I think I understand. Don't rely on people who either can't understand or aren't bothered.