Going Back To School

[Ga5bby]

I was in College. I was doing awesome at College. Well, at the learning part. I made the Deans Honor Roll. I wasn't failing. I was enjoying the learning. Then I get in a car wreck and end up with a concussion that puts me behind 3 weeks. Then I fall and get another concussion at which point I was advised to drop out of school because by the time I would be able to go back I would be too far behind.

I dropped out. I didn't want to. But I did because I didn't want to mess up my GPA. Then after two more concussions my Doctor didn't feel comfortable releasing for the next semester and the next. So now I'm allowed to go back this Fall. I'm scared to death.

I've decided to go into Social Work. Not because it pays good. Not because it sound fun and exciting. But because I'm passionate about it. Because it gives me a reason to keep going. Because the system can be screwed up. But it isn't always. Because if I can help even one child it would be worth it for me. Because kids deserve better.

Going back to school is exciting for me. It's going to be an adventure. But like I said, I'm scared to death. I'm really afraid I'm going to let the anxiety overtake the passion. I don't know how to not let that happen.

 

[Red Feather]

Hi Gabby I can understand you are having anxiety. I just would like to say that you are brave and it is inspiring to hear about what is motivating you. Your motivation can remain your focus point to help you deal with the anxiety. I hope you can decide yourself how many courses you are taking so as not to take on too much.

While I was in school I wanted to give up so many times. But I finished my degree as one of the best in my year. It took me three years to write one paper. But I didn't give up and got a lot of support from friends. Sometimes I would meet with a friend to read texts together, just so that I could calm my anxiety about it. I had real concentration problems. If you want to, you can work through it. Wishing you lots of strength.

 

[Nadege]

Congratulations and good luck. I had been in school on and off from the age of 18 to 33 (now). I was expelled from my first college for low performance (untreated depression, very bad). I just graduated with my bachelor's with a 3.3 GPA. It was very hard and draining, but it's all behind now.

 

[Nadege]

I had real concentration problems. If you want to, you can work through it. Wishing you lots of strength.

Same here - poor concentration has been a problem. I wish you to enjoy your classes, so that even though challenging, they are interesting and you learn a lot. I read in a good book once - try to find something interesting and exciting in each of your classes to help you get through it and get something out of it!
Lots of luck to you!

 

[piratelady]

You can do it Gabby! And it's something for you to focus on :)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Oh Gabby, I am so happy for you. You are in a position to do yourself some real good. I am rooting for you from my little corner of the world. I have 2 years of college and dropped out because I did not know how to finish. You will make a big difference in the system once you are done with school. You will be in a position to help some children. I am so very proud of you.

It is normal to feel some anxiety about going back, but I bet once you have reestablished yourself in school again, you will just love it. It will be so good for you. You are amazing. I am so excited for you.

 

[EloiseLandau]

Just got my BS in Biology. It can be done!

 

[Nadege]

Just got my BS in Biology. It can be done!

My best friend got a BS in that. Now she's working as a microbiologist.

 

[iMPACTt43w0r1d]

I'm so happy for you Gabby! :) I'm glad you're pursueing your passion. You can truely become greater. I say greater because you're already great :) I hope you're doing well and everything's ok. Keep us posted :)

 

[Ga5bby]

Thanks everybody! I need all the support I can get!

 

[toukon]

Congratulations on your decision! It can be really scary to try to go back. I know because I just did it myself.

I had to drop out 2 1/2 years ago because of my assault and PTSD. My grades were dropping and I couldn't concentrate. I could read something, and then forget what I just read.

I have learned that covering all material except for the paragraph that I am reading helps a great deal. I have six weeks left in this course, and then finish my thesis. I will have my master's degree at that time.

I couldn't have gone back without support from my daughter! She has been very understanding and has helped me learn to study again.

My first night back was tough, but tonight was easier. It just took some self talk to go back tonight.

Good luck! You can do it!

 

[Ga5bby]

I'm not so sure I can do it. I get these burst of motivation where I really want to go back. But then it's like I come back to my reality and realize I can't do it. I don't really know what to do. I feel very stuck right now.