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Gynae Appointment
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jadebear
My appointment is in less than an hour and I'm so anxious I want to call and cancel. But I am going to make myself go. I hate having to do this, but I know it's necessary. I'm not even sure what I'm so afraid of, so it makes it even harder.
A dress is a good idea, but I never wear them. And besides, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be allowed to keep one on, they always make me completely undress and wear a paper gown. At least I get to keep my socks on though.
A dress is a good idea, but I never wear them. And besides, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be allowed to keep one on, they always make me completely undress and wear a paper gown. At least I get to keep my socks on though.
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jadebear
It's over with. It wasn't as bad as I expected. It never is though.....
Lucycat
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jadebear said:
Well done. I remember how hard it was. Hopefully there's a long gap until the next time.
There have been many stories about how you have feld after gynae. I want to add mine too.
I had papa exam in the last week. It was my first so I was quite nervous :) Everythings goes well, doctor (female) was nice and so on. But when I came home, something start to happen. I have felt very good last half year, but now my mood start to go down. "I don't want this again!!!" :banghead:
My 'little demon' start to rise hers little head: "You let him to touch you!" I know this is not the whole true. Yes, I let him to touch me, BUT it was because I had no other choice!
This is what I have think back and forth allmost one week. And all just because one exam :oops: My mind understand that this demon is not right but my heart (or something) say "yes, it was all my fault that I let him to touch me". I just want to go over that. But I see bad dreams, today I don't have strenght to go work, I just want to do something with my hands that I can forget this all even for minute.
I know I have to go there again. This was pre-exam for that next meeting. And I know that the next time it will hurt, a lot. And I am very nevous that if this kind of nice and little exam start this kind of feelings, what it will be after next time...? :cold:
I had papa exam in the last week. It was my first so I was quite nervous :) Everythings goes well, doctor (female) was nice and so on. But when I came home, something start to happen. I have felt very good last half year, but now my mood start to go down. "I don't want this again!!!" :banghead:
My 'little demon' start to rise hers little head: "You let him to touch you!" I know this is not the whole true. Yes, I let him to touch me, BUT it was because I had no other choice!
This is what I have think back and forth allmost one week. And all just because one exam :oops: My mind understand that this demon is not right but my heart (or something) say "yes, it was all my fault that I let him to touch me". I just want to go over that. But I see bad dreams, today I don't have strenght to go work, I just want to do something with my hands that I can forget this all even for minute.
I know I have to go there again. This was pre-exam for that next meeting. And I know that the next time it will hurt, a lot. And I am very nevous that if this kind of nice and little exam start this kind of feelings, what it will be after next time...? :cold:
Lucycat
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Hi Peupeu,
I have missed you! Glad to hear that you have been well until this test.
In the UK we call the pap test a smear test. Same thing different name. I was very worried when I had mine last year, but it was fine. I was so expecting that it would make me feel bad, but it never did.
I am sorry that your mood has dropped. I don't know what you mean by;
Anyway, you must be proud of yourself for having the first test. It is an achievement, you have got through it- be proud of yourself! Don't worry about the next test. Concentrate of the feeling of success for having completed the first test. Take note of how good it feels that it is done. Worrying about the next one does not make it any better - or any worse. It is just the anxiety talking, trying to trip you up. Don't listen to the anxiety, it is not your friend.
Hope you are soon feeling better,
Regards
Lucy x
I have missed you! Glad to hear that you have been well until this test.
In the UK we call the pap test a smear test. Same thing different name. I was very worried when I had mine last year, but it was fine. I was so expecting that it would make me feel bad, but it never did.
I am sorry that your mood has dropped. I don't know what you mean by;
I would only expect there to be a second test if there was some problem with the first one? Maybe this is something entirely different you are meaning?
Anyway, you must be proud of yourself for having the first test. It is an achievement, you have got through it- be proud of yourself! Don't worry about the next test. Concentrate of the feeling of success for having completed the first test. Take note of how good it feels that it is done. Worrying about the next one does not make it any better - or any worse. It is just the anxiety talking, trying to trip you up. Don't listen to the anxiety, it is not your friend.
Hope you are soon feeling better,
Regards
Lucy x
Hi Lucy.
It is so nice to hear that someone have missed me :hug:I have write couple of times in my diary, but yes, I have been quite quietly. It is maybe my nature: when everything is in order, we don't speak; when nothing is in order, we go to forest; but when it is 'quite ok', then we can say couple words :) Welcome to Finland, land of silence! :)
And thanks for correcting my words! This kind of vocabulary is hard to find if you don't have medical dictionary :p
About that second 'treatment': I have hormonal coil (I don't know if I found the right word, sorry), and it have to change every 5 year if you are under 40 years old. And now is the time. Last time it hurt and a lot! I almost faint because of pain. Doctors want that you take the smear test before they change the coil. And thats why I called it 'pre-exam'.
This maybe don't belong to here (sorry!), but I want to say that it is so nice to see that you are feeling better :hug::applause: I have read some of your writings, so I know that you have also those bad days... But like I said, I have also had that privilage that I had couple very good months, so I hope your 'good days' will last as long as possible :hug:
It is so nice to hear that someone have missed me :hug:I have write couple of times in my diary, but yes, I have been quite quietly. It is maybe my nature: when everything is in order, we don't speak; when nothing is in order, we go to forest; but when it is 'quite ok', then we can say couple words :) Welcome to Finland, land of silence! :)
And thanks for correcting my words! This kind of vocabulary is hard to find if you don't have medical dictionary :p
About that second 'treatment': I have hormonal coil (I don't know if I found the right word, sorry), and it have to change every 5 year if you are under 40 years old. And now is the time. Last time it hurt and a lot! I almost faint because of pain. Doctors want that you take the smear test before they change the coil. And thats why I called it 'pre-exam'.
This maybe don't belong to here (sorry!), but I want to say that it is so nice to see that you are feeling better :hug::applause: I have read some of your writings, so I know that you have also those bad days... But like I said, I have also had that privilage that I had couple very good months, so I hope your 'good days' will last as long as possible :hug:
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