Hi, Seabreeze.
I was born into the land of trauma 51 years ago. I just didn't realize it. I thought it was normal. It took getting to know some folks who weren't raised in a violent home, weren't physically abused. At some point I realized I was unable to control my urge to push them away and I needed help. I am destroying all my friendships, and I had been for most of my life. Some recent new traumas have brought things to light and pushed the anxiety levels higher than ever before. It used to just be anger. I was always angry. Anyway, there is more information in my introduction.
This is a great forum and has been very helpful. I'd recommend you read other people's stories, explore the site and I think you will find you are not alone. This site "feels" safe to me. For the hyper-vigilant soul that I am, it has been a big blessing just knowing I am not the only person in the world of trauma. While we each have our own individual sources but there seems to be a lot of injured souls out there and this is a good place to feel accepted and "safe." There seem to be a lot of people who know a lot more than I do about the process of healing. At least it seems that way to me in the short time I have been a member. I am glad to have this resource between visits with my therapist!
Hope to you!
Sammy
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