Hey everybody,
I've spent a good portion of my adult life as a mountaineer and rock climber (although I no longer climb for reasons soon obvious). About fifteen years ago I was doing a remote climb with my buddy and another climber. We had finished the climb and were starting the numerous rappels to get off the back side of the climb. To make a long story short my friend screwed up his rappel and fell 300' to his death, taking all our ropes with him. We were stranded on a small ledge for 36 hours and grew increasingly dehydrated and hypothermic. A helicopter rescued us. I was diagnosed with PTSD.
Since then I've continually f*cked up my life by thrill seeking behavior and not seeing things like bills, credit rating, speeding tickets and such as important. I have to fight the attitude that what most people worry about isn't authentic. This has undermined my finances and career.
And then there is the thrill seeking. Instead of sobering me up, being stranded on that ledge seemed to make me more of an adrenaline junky. As if I saw the abyss and wanted to keep taking peeks. I've found healthy ways of working with this-- bowman on a big racing sailboat, volunteer Emergency Medical Tech. But I've mostly done stupid things.
I'm here because of the most recent stupid things that have damn near destroyed my marriage. I can find no local support groups.
If you read through all that, thanks!
Bruce
I've spent a good portion of my adult life as a mountaineer and rock climber (although I no longer climb for reasons soon obvious). About fifteen years ago I was doing a remote climb with my buddy and another climber. We had finished the climb and were starting the numerous rappels to get off the back side of the climb. To make a long story short my friend screwed up his rappel and fell 300' to his death, taking all our ropes with him. We were stranded on a small ledge for 36 hours and grew increasingly dehydrated and hypothermic. A helicopter rescued us. I was diagnosed with PTSD.
Since then I've continually f*cked up my life by thrill seeking behavior and not seeing things like bills, credit rating, speeding tickets and such as important. I have to fight the attitude that what most people worry about isn't authentic. This has undermined my finances and career.
And then there is the thrill seeking. Instead of sobering me up, being stranded on that ledge seemed to make me more of an adrenaline junky. As if I saw the abyss and wanted to keep taking peeks. I've found healthy ways of working with this-- bowman on a big racing sailboat, volunteer Emergency Medical Tech. But I've mostly done stupid things.
I'm here because of the most recent stupid things that have damn near destroyed my marriage. I can find no local support groups.
If you read through all that, thanks!
Bruce
