Hey there, friends - Struggling with depression, anxiety, & isolation.

Theasylumsystem

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Hey everyone. I hope you're doing okay.

A lot has been going on and I feel really alone I guess... I haven't posted on here in a while. I feel like I'm treading water. I'm always just a moment away from slipping back under. My depression is okay when I'm with my family during the day, But at night it's the night terrors and hallucinations. My agoraphobia is bad again too. I feel stagnant in therapy and I'm slipping into another spiral. The flashbacks suck. I'm coming up to the anniversary of my psychotic break next month. Disability denied my application, but appealing it might mean I have to go to court.

The only real thing I have been doing is training my service dog. He's been doing amazing lately. I just don't really have any friends anymore and It's really hard to keep in contact with me because I have severe time blindness I just...ugh. I'm trying to learn to be better, but I don't have the will to fight right now. I'm tired
 
Sometimes winning the fight is just staying afloat. And even when it feels like that’s all you’re doing, it’s amazing.

Training your service dog is a big deal. Give yourself credit for that. Maybe you don’t “people” so well at the moment. That’s okay. Dogs were my substitute for friends for a long time, and plants before that. Mostly they still are.

I’m sorry it feels shit. But you got this. Your coping skills get stronger every day, so draw on the things that have helped you in the past.
 
Your right @Theasylumsystem we are your friends...make use of us!

Feeling stagnant in therapy sometimes is normal. Life can be like a rollercoaster at times and that's normal too! Apart from therapy and training your service dog 🐕‍🦺 which are both aspects of your life to be celebrated by the way!... how else do you spend your time? What else is in your life?
 
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