I've been having much difficulty evenings falling asleep. I lay in bed and increasingly suffer the longer I lay there. Numerous realities just hit and it's been hard to manage these all. Mostly it's been lots of pain and pressure in the back, base of my skull and random severe nerve pains throughout my body.
Today my GP prescribed Gabapentin. I've not been taking much prescribed medication as not much seems to help without causing some other problem. Even OTC advil PM's seem to bring suprise bruising. Ativan and a prior benzo. which once helped greatly, are now counterproductive and not recommended with brain injury. My own experience with such seems to prove true in spite of how much I wish to deny this, ...I don't.
This morning I woke up from nightmares that I fell during school and once upon the floor with my face then pinned to the cold tile, I was paralyzed and couldn't lift my head away and up and was stuck while other students walked by and around me.
The other nightmare resulted in me waking up screaming due to just having stuck my head over the top of a box to observe the special-rat, (science-class-experiment) - that I'd apparently had the unique privilege and choice to (apparently due to the high status town I was raised in), ...anyhow when I peeked over, the rat was half the size of me, could near reach me and opened it's mouth wide near my face scaring me half to death. I woke up screaming.
Anyhow, I no longer am able to concentrate on what I've said here so anyhow, sleeptime has been real tough and though it could certainly be worse, night-time these days has me too often very frightened for a few reasons.
