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How Did You Sleep Last Night?

I couldn't sleep last night. Feelings of needing to be punished were running through my head-decided I didn't need sleep... It's a privilege designed for people who are not rude or horrible, so that leaves me out!
 
I haven't been sleeping all the way through the night for a while now.

I usually get up at around 3a.m and go online. I'll get back to bed around 5-6a.m and sleep til 10:30ish. Been having more dreams lately though...so I'm happy about that, though I don't record them in time, and forget the bulk of it.

I still have dreams recurring with me and my mother every now and then. They are always the same theme...we DON'T get along, and get really aggro.

The only different one I've had, that hasn't involved us totally tearing into each other, was about 6 weeks ago, where I had a really disturbing dream that I witnessed my mother have some sort of regression where she was talking about how she was so "dirty" and kept rubbing her arms and legs and was curled up in the foetal position, and I started viewing her with compassion instead of my usual aggression and strong dislike and violence.

I felt terrible and tried to get closer to her to hold her, but she wouldn't let me come near her...she just kept saying she was so dirty and shaking her head, and looked really disturbed. It was terrifying.

I woke up and it haunted me for days...my mother has been raped before, when she was younger...but I'm not sure if it was about me or our relationship, or my conflict within myself?
 
I had the best night sleep I've had in nearly 18 months, after coming off anti-depressants recently.

I am starting to feel a little better the last few days, and I had a normal dream, with no-one trying to kill me or hurt me.

I'm not going to get too excited about things getting better, because I learned the hard way, it doesn't seem to last, but is a positive sign, that maybe therapy working.
 
Rough night last night. Went to bed at 11pm, got finally to sleep 4am. Tossing turning. Heart pumping. Hot sweats, cold sweats. 10 trips to the bathroom, blocked the toilet, unblocked the toilet LOL!!!
Woke this morning at 9.30. Managed to get 5 and half hours straight :) but I am soooooo hot. Just want to climb in a bath full of ice! heh
 
I slept for the first time in a month at night. I was up for about an 1 1/2 but that was all. I have been up since 8:30am and the boys are still sleeping. I hope it stays this way. Tired of being up all night and sleeping during the day.
 
It's 5:30a.m now, so obviously I didn't make it through this night either. I think it's become a habit now that I'm just used to. I guess it's not a 'bad' thing as such, but I would like to get back to sleeping right through the night again.
 
It's 3 in the morning and I haven't gotten any sleep. All the school keeps running through my mind. And mostly one thought is coming from my thirteen year old self. "I slandered her name. It could ruin her life." WHERE it's coming from or WHO it's directed AT-I have no idea.
 
I dreamed another teacher of mine sexually abused me.

It was very vivid, I didn't know I was dreaming until I woke up. It was terrible. :(
 
Warning - if you are suffering from insomnia, look away now :cool:.

This weekend I have done hardly anything except sleep. I am turning into either a dormouse or a sloth. I went to bed last night at about 11.45pm. I got out of bed 1.15pm today and yes I slept. I was awake for 4 hours and then went for a 90 minute nap. Now it is almost 10.30pm and I'm almost ready for bed.

Bless my H. When I tell him he must wake me, he just shrugs and says I obviously need the sleep.
 

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