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How Did You Sleep Last Night?

Frustrated with it being after 4 in the morning here and not having slept a wink.

I know I need my sleep, but I can't afford to gain reliance upon anything stronger then Melaton or L'Triptofan (something like this). Even though I do reserve the right to take something stronger. I'm just trying to be very, very careful which given certain severity in symptoms sometimes, isn't easy.

Last night after hunting, I found an old prescription that I set myself free of agonizing over taking. I was concerned about the expiration date on it, among other things, but not so concerned that I was going to beyond suffer or disrupt another's sleep, or do the impossible ER experience and possibly hospitalization.

Due to a previous medical comment, my concerns, as well as, possibly symptom association resulting from past tbi, I was scared to be in such a dilemma, but I did it. I'm glad I did, and my only concern is tonight's unexpected additional itching. Injection site itching, sure. But that as well as the onset of distressing unexpected itching has me thinking tonight (while referencing my past), I hope like damn that I am not allergic to this stuff. Because, I am now thinking I'm going to rely upon it again, as a PRN when absolutely necessary. If permitted to again, of course.
 
I slept well until 1am and well I couldn't believe what happened.

I live in England, the temp is 3 deg C outside, it is hardly out of winter, it is 1am, I am snuggled up to my neck under the duvet - and I get stung by a hornet. I mean WTF.

I woke up to a v loud buzzing around my head, I must have waved my hand and ouch.

Someone doesn't want me to sleep.
 
Kath, we didn't have enough cold weather this year. I already have misquitos here. I also think (except for the stress) it's one of the reasons I am so sick. No balance in the weather.

I hope it doesn't hurt too much!!
 
I was so exhausted - fell asleep crying a little bit, woke up to worrying dreams. I think my body did get rest because it needed to. Despite it all, I feel rested.
 
Loads of interrupted nights - so many I can't remember having a normal night's sleep now. It's got to the point where I wake at 3am and just get up! Have tried so many times to get back to sleep but my mind is racing after the intense flashbacks which woke me up in the first instance. It takes a good 10-15 minutes to calm down and realise it's just a flashback, they are so real. I can even smell and feel the stairwell I found myself in that evening.
 
My fight or flight switch was switched on I guess. Every time I started drifting off, an internal silent alarm would go off and I'd wake up. I'm not sure why this is happening again.
 
I can only sleep with medication these days, so tired all the time but can't get to sleep on my own anymore. Once the medication starts to leave my system I am wide awake again, usually about 3:30 or 4 in the morning.
 
I rarely get more than 4 hours of sleep, ever. Even that is fitful and disrupted and I am plagued by nightmares and night terrors. I can't even think of a time I slept through or had a pleasant dream. I wake feeling unrefreshed and exhausted, every single morning. It has been this way for as long as I can remember, over 30 years, at least.
 
Couldn't sleep. The dang body memories came back. :( So I went to my Mommy and Daddy's bed. Mommy was on her side, Daddy was partly in the middle and partly on his side, so I had to squeeze in between Mommy and Daddy, and I was cramped. (I didn't want to wake them up, cause I didn't want to have to explain stuff and have them shake it off.) Oh and my dog was also on my pillow. So bad night for me. I slept probably ten minutes, and woke up to my Mommy asking my Daddy to remember that he said he would stop smoking, and then having the whole "I'm not smoking!" debate- bold obvious lie. Not a good night. Not looking forward to today either. Dang body memories and stupid voice- It's so real. >.<
 

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