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So far, by crafting, learning more about something that fuels my passion, and spending some time creating in the kitchen:

Made a few more tile magnets where I draw flowers or hearts or trees and such and put messages on them, like "Eye see the beauty in you." "Thanks for filling my heart space with loving kindness.", "Spend your current-$ee wisely." "Breathe it all in, love it all out.", "Follow your heart prints.", "You've enriched my life and I thank you.", etc.

Completed a couple more segments of my hoopers marketing course and actually did the homework assignments. I'm still not a very good student when I have to sit still...nor do I get in a hurry to complete what I start at times.

Made crock pot reishi mushroom/hot cocoa sweetened with coconut sugar and topped with vegan marshmallows to celebrate the first snowfall rather than cursing it and bitching about it, as I used to do. (I was also formerly an "essential" employee who had to venture out no matter how deep it got, so I'm a bit jaded) So grateful for the much needed ground moisture...and even more grateful I have nowhere to be requiring me to shovel, freeze, and likely bust my non-graceful already achin' ass.
 
This evening I forgave my self and used deep breathing and muscle relaxation to help combat my mind's desire to beat my self half to death over "volunteering" to continue to complete an art project for someone that I did NOT want to do after they kept adding on to the same project.

Initially, this friend said the project would be simple...then kept adding on, and adding on to it making it nearly intolerable to complete...yet I did complete it. I again practiced a lot of deep breathing and shoulder rolls and staying in the moment (mindfulness) to complete said project. And I practiced self-forgiveness as well.

As I was beating my self up (so I immediately forgave my self for continuing to work on the said project) and for continuing to say, "Yes, I'll complete it!" to my friend.

When I really wanted to say..."Hell...to the no I won't!" I've forgiven my self and did complete this art project tonight and I also forgave my self and celebrated the completion of the said project.

I indulged on two dark chocolate bars and popping the cork on a bottle of delicious sparkling cider and drinking a glass of sparkling Apple Cider vinegar that I was gifted to me that I'd been saving a few months for the last week of December.

I've not had dark chocolate or anything "sparkling" for months now. And after the chocolate bars I stopped indulging (in the past I would've have cleared out more food from my fridge. I'm very proud of my self for not doing this! Yay!

I did not have to overeat and actually nurtured by self and loved on my self after this yukky project. And my little girl child within "loved!" the dark chocolate and bubbles from the sparkling cider.

I finally openly verbalized to my friend (after I realized that I wasn't honest with my self or him and that I was people-pleasing him which had earlier infuriated me at my self) that I'd never again do this particular project because I hated do this one from the very outset.

And I also said to him that the next time to please stop adding on and on to his initial artsy request for me to work on...because I won't do add-ons in the future...if he tries again to add on and on to his initial request again.

During this exchanged I have learned so much about people-pleasing and a lot about saying "no!" sooner than as this time...later when I'm unwilling to do something...anything.

Great lessons learned about my self in this exchange with my friend. Yay!

And thank you @Disco Dancing Queen for posting your above two mindfulness resources.
 
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After a few months of attending TS yoga sessions - which I find incredibly challenging and uncomfortable....let’s see shall I run away, throw up or dissociate lol - this morning I sat cross legged on my mat at home and tried to simply notice. If I focus on breathing I feel a wave of panic come over me. So for now it’s just notice. This is really difficult for me.

Thanks to my lovely t for this suggestion after I tried not to dissociate through my session yesterday. It’s also a way to work on my over achiever, perfectionist tendencies. Apparently I don’t have to figure this out straight away.
 
I am finding it increasingly difficult. There’s been literal fog everywhere and everything is dull for days now. I can’t wait for winter to be over, where there is more ambient life and sounds, and colors.

I guess I will go back inside and stare at random objects and touch the same things. It is not good I still find myself spacing out and talking to myself, remembering things while doing it. And sometimes pick objects up and move them around the house and unknowingly set them down in places that are difficult to find.

I’ll try a meditation. Why I avoid the exercises I don’t know.

Cup is full.
Alone and isolated in my work...
I know I get better eventually when people return and give me relief for all the work that needs to be done around here.
 
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Why I avoid the exercises I don’t know.

Because of what you just put down below, I think that you have a full plate at the moment and are doing your very best and so try not to be hard on yourself for the time being because when I feel like that I usually have very little energy, no motivation and an unfocused mind and body that just needs to go easy on myself. Take care

Cup is full.
Alone and isolated in my work...
I know I get better eventually when people return and give me relief for all the work that needs to be done around here.
 
Thank you rain. It consistently eludes me that I am overly stressed. I have never been good at recognizing that Or doing anything about it.
 
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