I did not mean to ramble. Just needed to vent. Back to PTSD. My wife saw a psycologist that counseled her and performed EMDR with her about 7 years ago. The EMDR did change the way she lived life. After my wife had sessions with the psycologist for a season, and after several EMDR sessions, she began to be able to file traumas in different drawers in her mind. However, she would open the drawers of trauma and twist what was filed and blame me for all of her pain.
Up until she went to this psycologist, only one other counselor my wife had, diagnosed her with PTSD. Two psychiatrists, three family doctors, and three counselors diagnosed her with Bi-polar/manic depressive disorder.
I have a question. Is it really important to know the exact diagnosis for my wife? If my wife refuses to receive treatment and will only use what psycologists, drs., and psychiatrists say to focus her past pain and trauma, on unleashing contempt and abuse on me, then does it really matter if she has Bi-polar/manic depressive disorder, PTSD, a Hormonal Disorder, demon possession, or whatever else?
It seemed that EMDR actually had an affect that allowed her to load bigger bullets to place into a bigger gun to shoot me with.
About two and one half years ago, my wife was convinced that I needed to go to the psycologist and undergo EMDR. So I did. I had several sessions with him and EMDR did help me. In one of our sessions, he asked me how my wife treated me. I told him that she would typically blame me for all the trauma in her life. She even blames me, somehow, for the abuse that she suffered as a child before I even met her, the sexual abuse from her sister. By the way, my wife gets along very well with her sister, superfisually. My wife laughs and talks with her sister on the phone, then, after she hangs up from talking with her, she lashes out at me for not providing what my sister's husband provides for her sister. rabbit trail.
Anyway, the psycologist pinned me down and asked me what exactly my wife would say to me. I told him that I did not know because when my wife went on an angry rant I just zoned out. So he challenged me that the next time she would go on a rant to ask her permission to write down everything she said. He asked me if I thought she would haver her rant with me in the next week before her next appointment. I said that I was sure she would have one. I was correct in my assumption.
So, within a couple of days, my wife goes into one of her angry rants, I ask if I can write down what she is saying and an unbelievable thing happends, she says sure. So I write down all of the mean and nasty things she says. I write down all 70 of them.
The next session, I hand the papers with the 70 items on them to the psycologist. He reads over them and asks me how many times my wife has had her rants and I told him three or four times since last week. So, he says then this list represents the things that she said for all of the different rants, I said, "Oh, no, this is from one rant." He said that I should never allow anyone to talk to me the way that my wife did and that he wanted me to get her to come in and have more sessions with him and have more EMDR treatments. I mentioned that to my wife and she refused to go back to him.
On my last session with him which was the next week, he told me exactly what would happen and how my wife would make decisions to the tee. He forsaw that she would leave me, have a sexual affair, marry another man, divorce him, have another sexual affair and the cycle would continue because she is not dealing with her problems.
Well she has committed adultery, with another man, talking and texting him on the phone with at least four sexual encounters with him. I am getting so weary of all of this. So my ending question. How much of this is PTSD? Anyone out there?
