I Cant Keep Going Like This

[jd9900]

Money...heh...a phrase I tend to embrace. "Money cannot buy you happiness, but it can afford you options."


It's one thing, but it is not everything.

 

[wolfkitty]

I started my own business, you know it was the best thing I have ever done for myself. I hire others to do the jobs I can't (like doing customer service with people that would set me off every which way) and then I also have the freedom to have as many "sick" days as I need to. I love to help people, I want to help people but some people push me too far, this way I get to help but I can go hide behind my computer if I need to as well.

My next step in my previous career was management, and so glad I got sick and wasn't able to make that move...never would have lasted long. Now I still am in management but I am the boss and there is nobody but me to jerk me around he he.

 

[jd9900]

I am so with you there as well. I mean, I too love helping people and feel it not only my duty as a human but if I am getting paid for it it is also my obligation. All I ever really wanted to do was go into a computer lab, put my head down, and not have to talk to humans so much - computers get me. I get them. They are like me - they have no soul. I know, I have taken them apart and looked. :)

Somehow it seems like if you are good at what you do people want to promote you. I am like "Let me be a lowly engineer, don't ask me to babysit anyone." It's hard to make six figures and be that guy, though, so I too went into business for myself.

 

[jd9900]

Hehe...now I run an escort service. I make six figures working three days a week. :)

 

[Recker]

I totally understand this. This is my first post but have been reading for several months, was just afraid to write.

I've been struggling with PTSD for almost 30 years. Have worked low paying jobs because it's all I can do. Then started custom framing, had my own gallery and it was perfect, I could take my dog, if I was late because I went a night without sleep it wasn't a big deal, if I had to close for a half an hour to regroup I just put a note on my door. Then the economy tanked and I lost my business, my partner was ill and was going for disability, the financial burden was on me.

Then I had to find a job in the "real world" and it's made everything worse. So I'm at a industrial laundry facility that is loud, every noise makes me cringe and at times hit the floor. Every day I don't know how I'm going to make it, but I need it to survive. I'm 47 now, I don't have hope that I can better my circumstances, my life is always going to be a struggle.

I wish I had answers for you, but your post moved me to reply to say you aren't alone. I understand.

 

[jd9900]

recker -welcome!!! I am glad you decided to post - I very much like and agree with what you just said.

Like what you just said, I want you to know you are not alone either. I have done some shitty things in my life just to get by. I've chosen at times to sacrifice my morals for a paycheck. I am not proud.

You being willing to post that helps me remember I'm not alone either, and really helps me get back up off the ground. Thank you very much!