Other I could not speak (verbal)

[shatter eyes]

I have been having hard time and i got frustrated and could not speak. Even after i calm down i was not able to speak a sentence. If i spoke a few words i would feel very tired. However i could write like now...but if i was to speak all this verbally i could not.

Whats going?
Anybody know?
It never lasted this long before. Its not amygdala hijack because i am calm now and still cant speak aloud.

I drew a diagram

It is a big problem for me because when i really need to speak i cannot. I cannot tell someone to stop bothering me or i need my space.... so i end up breaking stuff and blowing up. So i hide and stay away.

 

[blackemerald1]

Is the 'someone' who is bothering you a person you know reasonably well?

Because I asked a person I knew that once I put my hands up palms facing them - I wasn't going to be verbally responding any further. It worked ok for a while but I had to terminate the relationship eventually. They ignored it after a while and didn't respect me.

Why is someone bothering you so much @shatter eyes?

 

[Freida]

Whats going?
Anybody know?
It never lasted this long before. Its not amygdala hijack because i am calm now and still cant speak aloud.

YES!!!! The first time ths happened to me I was UNDONE. Me - not being able to speak? Never.
And even after I calmed down talking was still hit an miss. I had what I thought I had laryngitis at one point but -- T thinks it was a trauma reaction.

T had me think back to the last thing I was thinking or talking about right before it happened and sure enough - I was thinking about being beaten so I would remember I wasn't allowed to speak. It wasn't a flashback -just a thought. But it had more of an impact than I realized. So now when it happens I know where to start the search.... And yes - if it is a someone causing it I do what @blackemerald1 suggested - palm out and walk away. That's a really powerful gesture

 

[shatter eyes]

There is not a specific person bothering me. It can be anyone. Someone standing too close.
Someone shaking their legs when i try to think.

And medical appointment reception booking..etc etc. Lots need verbal communication.

Once i lose my speech i get wound up super quick and blow up. I am trying hard not avoid people so i dont need to speak.

I use the palm also and yes overtime people just dont respect it anymore.

Where can i get help for this?

 

[MyWillow]

So obviously I don’t know what’s happening but I’m wondering if:
a) you are getting triggered
b) your body feels unsafe
c) your Broca’s area (responsible for speech in the brain) is shutting down. This is a NORMAL response - google Broca and trauma and Bessel but here’s a start (I Just Can't Talk About It (Broca's area & trauma) - Quiet Storms)

Based on my psydoc’s wise words I would be focused on telling my body I am safe now. That I’m ok and I’m listening and that I will take action to make it safe. It takes LOTS of practice.

Do you have a decent trauma T?

 

[shimmerz]

Yes, this is a 'thing' that has gotten me locked down in hospitals because I was being 'stubborn', had friends freak out on me, which of course makes it way worse, and strangers lose their absolute shit on me.

Broca's Area, which is thought to transmit thoughts into words, is what I understand is at the root of this. I put it down my dropping down to a deep regressive state. Perhaps even a preverbal part coming to front.

It has, by and large, left for me. It was a huge problem at one time though. Keep people around you who can accept that this happens to you - and I used to be able to type what I was thinking, which I would do when I went mute, so I could try to get at what the initial trigger was.

Very sorry to hear you are going through this. It is painfully disorienting.

 

[Abstract]

Thank you for posting. Don't have the headspace to answer as dealing with some stuff but I relate and have been wanting to post a thread about my speaking issues. Long term issue for me going way back which thank goodness is not much of a problem at present. I seem to have a wide variety of issues relating to speech. Different stuff going on. Why do you act out? Is it frustration or other feelings?

I too have been very misunderstood in a variety of situations and a lot of that time didn't have the ability to express it as it what it was or I couldn't speak.

 

[jaay]

it sounds a lot like some form of pretty bad mutism attack stopping you from being able to speak- they usually come on due to strong feelings of stress/ anxiety/ fear, or sometimes just no reason at all. Also, being triggered can also, unfortunately, trigger them. Forcing yourself to try to speak only makes them worse, because you get more frustrated and self loathing. Best thing to do is keep a pen and paper with you, explain to a few people you trust that you physically cannot speak atm, and breathe through your mouth the whole time (specifically through the mouth seems to help a lot, idk why it just does)