So, I'm new to all of this. I never even thought my "story" was that big of a deal... it wont make you cry and it wasn't enough to ever justify getting me into real therapy and I never thought it would become an overwhelming issue in my life... I should have been able to just deal with what happened on my own.
Needless to say I was wrong.. at first it was normal, I wasnt as interested in sex itself. When that got worse we just blamed it on the anti-anxiety meds. When it continued to get worse (even after I dropped the meds) we said we would work through it. Now its been months since my husband and I have had sex and I even flinch away when he touches me... Im less interested in everything intimate - kissing, cuddling, and other perfectly normal things.... and just for the record this is NOT normal for me I have always been an intimate person. My sweet and wonderful husband has been here for me through it all and has been more than understanding, never complaining when I ask to stop or tell him no, but I know that Im starting to make it harder, touching is a huge part of a healthy relationship and I know that it bothers him more than he says because I know sometimes - even though he knows the reason for it- he takes my coldness personally.
The worst part is that I WANT to be sexual, i WANT to want sex .... I dont want to be revolted by the idea of intimacy anymore... But I am, he doesnt know how bad it is because I think it might hurt him, but most of the time the thought of sex makes me nauseous.
I honestly dont know why this is happening now. I thought I was finally getting past everything that happened to me
How do I fix this?
Needless to say I was wrong.. at first it was normal, I wasnt as interested in sex itself. When that got worse we just blamed it on the anti-anxiety meds. When it continued to get worse (even after I dropped the meds) we said we would work through it. Now its been months since my husband and I have had sex and I even flinch away when he touches me... Im less interested in everything intimate - kissing, cuddling, and other perfectly normal things.... and just for the record this is NOT normal for me I have always been an intimate person. My sweet and wonderful husband has been here for me through it all and has been more than understanding, never complaining when I ask to stop or tell him no, but I know that Im starting to make it harder, touching is a huge part of a healthy relationship and I know that it bothers him more than he says because I know sometimes - even though he knows the reason for it- he takes my coldness personally.
The worst part is that I WANT to be sexual, i WANT to want sex .... I dont want to be revolted by the idea of intimacy anymore... But I am, he doesnt know how bad it is because I think it might hurt him, but most of the time the thought of sex makes me nauseous.
I honestly dont know why this is happening now. I thought I was finally getting past everything that happened to me
How do I fix this?
