I don't deserve this because i'm not worthy.. the same repetitive internal dialogue

[anthony]

Interesting... so you're saying, you haven't given up trying on relationships, and that to meet them you need to keep applying, whilst accepting that rejection is part and parcel of the process?

Please correct me for my interpretation of your above words at any stage!

 

[J_trustno1]

No no, what I was saying that now I see relationships similar to applying for jobs. I've only felt this way after our conversation here now. I have only tried 3 so far and they were pathetic experiences. Two of them were on internet and one was in real life. I stopped giving into the whole relationship deal since the third one because it felt that there is no point in trying when I was ending up with guys who had no respect for my feelings and I was just an object to them in each case. There is more to a relationship than just two people copulating. There is emotional connection, morals, personality, ethics, honesty and of course humor as well. There are actually more qualities a relationship needs than just a pretty face. I wouldn't go for someone if their moral values and personality or thoughts didn't match mine. I'm not saying that I'm looking for my clone but I want someone who can be at least between 50-80% of the personality and morals I am looking for.

 

[anthony]

Do you find that a good thing, or bad?

 

[J_trustno1]

I think it's a good quality to have to look beyond someone's face. I haven't been able to tolerate people who had sick/pathetic morals regardless of their looks. I don't have tolerance for hypocrites. I've always felt that I was rejected by guys maybe because I didn't fit their looks criteria and now I was also thinking of not looking for someone who was that good looking just to save from the grief of rejection.