My therapist says he is *confident* I will not act on harming abusers-types. I'm not. Don't know why he is. Often wonder what if he is wrong. Tho we have a deal that I will tell him first. Sounds silly. But probably would uphold the deal.
Not anymore because I would have done it already. I had a very similar scenario when I was in my early teens. I had means and motive. I wished many times since I would have done it. But everyone involved is long since dead, except me, and I wouldn’t give them the satisfaction now. I shy away from people being violent now. Not really worried about the hero thing.