This is sooooooooo hard -
I forgive myself for falling in love with the most kindest, compassionate, fun, caring, honest, warm, attentive, courageous, brave ,generous, hard working, affectionate ,considerate, sweet, gentle, long-suffering,
persevering ,loving man (yes, a sufferer )who committed and then unexpectedly uncommitted.
I forgive myself for - as a result of that ,going into shock and slowly shutting down since.