I Realize That I

[macca]

I realise that I have become addicted to this forum - as here I feel validated - something that has been missing!

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I just had an emotional flashback. I almost always recognize it after I've cried and it's starting to go away. I wish the people who traumatized me had to have them too. They're the ones that inflicted pain. They should have to suffer just as bad as I do. If not worse.

 

[Deleted member 10686]

I realize that although I still struggle with disassociation, I have come a long way and do not dissociate nearly as often as I used to.

I realize that I need to work hard to get away from my patterns of avoidance.

 

[ninja]

I realize that although my voice was once silenced by someone else, it is now being done by myself.

 

[The Albatross]

Good realization Ninja.... now take it and learn how to keep your finger off the self destruct button. (That's what a friend called it... and I kept it because it reminds me that I'm the one often times that trips myself up and into the cycle of self abuse. Acting out or heaping criticisms on myself.)

 

[ninja]

Thank you @The Albatross. I think it will help me to think of it as a self destruct button. So accurate!

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize I am better at offering others compassion then I am at offering it to myself. I realize I will not get better unless I make a conscious effort at it.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I try to argue with and stop and silence hypervigilance. And I realized the other day that that's impossible and it's never going to work. I realize that hypervigilance has only one purpose and it can't and won't and doesn't know how to be anything else. All hypervigilance is and can do is seek out danger what looks like might be danger and alert me to it. I realize that if I'm going to turn the volume down on hypervigilance I'm going to have to deal with the anxiety that triggers it.

 

[macca]

I realise that I have buried some pretty intense anger, and it scares me.

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize that I can not expect others to think like me, nor should I necessarily want them to.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I'm really wrestling with PTSD. And I've decided that wrestling with PTSD is like wrestling an octopus. Just when you get one of it's arms almost pinned down and under some kind of control 7 other arms come at you from every direction. Not only that but the d* mn thing is biting you the whole time too.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that the behaviors I try to hide hurt people even though I try like crazy to protect them from the effects of my PTSD.