I Realize That I

[Tinyflame]

I realize that I feel totally vulnerable without hope to change that (be different) & totally filled with mistust as well.

 

[ms spock]

I realise that I need to take short time outs from dementia care.

I realise that I am managing dementia care so well, even though I struggle.

I realise that I am wise I am looking at pacing, safety and acceptance surrounding dementia care.

I realise that I am an excellent carer and I am grateful that I manage really well and provide stimulation, fun, disco dancing, social contact, good experiences, delicious food, humour and lots of attention to detail.

I realise that I am managing the aggressive, angry and violent behaviours.

I realise that I am managing well so far, today.

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize I am always going to feel that I was not doing enough, or enough, for my father.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that my daughter is not living in reality right now. I realize that she has a boyfriend and is happy with the arrangement. I realize that I was used and taken unfair advantage of. I realize that I do not know my daughter at all. I realize that the truth will come out in the end. I realize that I am not abandoning my family at all but taking care of my personal best interests at this time. I realize that i was in denial concerning my daughter and I am no longer in denial. i realize that I am having a panic attack because I am all alone now again.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I realize that my therapist isn't going to stay around forever. Just found out she took another job someplace else. Have her until the end of May. Then I may have to go to see a man. That's all they have left at this particular therapy place.

I just went through that with my therapist. How long have you had her? I had mine 3 years, twice a week for the most part and even though it sounds insurmountable, I made it through. It took a good 5 months, but I'm ok and I'm able to use what he taught me without being angry.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I realize that I am too hard on myself, and that just because my mother finds reasons to be bitter towards me doesn't make me a bad person. I realize now that she tells other people lies about me, making me into this awful person that she can hate.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize I'm not filled with mistrust, I'm filled with dread that I will pay for it because I trust.

But I hear it's ok to live your life a 'softie', if you are. And I realize it's nice to have the gift of knowledge that other soft-hearted people exist too. They make me feel that having ptsd isn't so bad or all-encompassing to everyone.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize that vulnerability is surrender, & not necessarily voluntary as factual, but doesn't include the feeling that all will be well.

 

[Britt.f7]

How long have you had her?

I think it's been about a year. The one before her left after her maternity leave. Then this one had maternity leave, came back, and said she was leaving. I've realized I have great times handling things on my own. I really don't want to though. How is it having a male therapist?

 

[DharmaGirl]

It's fine. It is more the therapist than the sex of the therapist.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that I am starting all over in my life. I am rebuilding my life and it is like a fire. I have my bedroom furniture, a curio cabinet, an entertainment cabinet and some things I saved from living in the mobile home.

I have to get a job first now. I am so scared of change and I do not give up but keep on trying to better my circumstances.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I need to take time outs.

I realize that I will have to decide what I want to become in my job.

I realize that I don't want to have children.

I realize that I enjoy the nice weather.

I realize that I cannot stand whiny acting from girls.