I Realize That I

[Teasel]

Must be feeling a bit better I'm looking at recipes again.

 

[blackemerald1]

That I am a lot more normal than people I think are normal!!

That I am a lot more normal than other normal people?!

That normal people don't really exist!! Lol... :)

 

[VioletButterfly]

I feel out of my element in terms of recovery most days.

I feel that I've forgotten more than I've researched, read, and/or experienced in this regard!

It's a constant fight against the negative voices in my head and that I am missing some points.

OMG! I'm trying and try each day. Okay - compassion and kindness, and support of a sorts which are fueled by my faith. Acknowledgement?!

I recognize that I wouldn't be here without my faith. Do I want to be here though? Apparently, God wants me here, so I will try again. Grrrr!

 

[Lionheart]

I realize that I've "lost" the person who was most precious to me in this life and I have a long road ahead of me. And it is okay that I am not okay right now.

 

[Abstract]

Give a lot of my power away even though people may not perceive that.

 

[Abstract]

d it is okay that I am not okay right now.

It is.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I keep trippin' all over this perceived turbo charged hamster wheel of emotional indigestion that I inhabit at some point each day within this tossed mind space salad of mine. As one of my favorite musicians, Michael Franti, says, "Seems like everywhere I go, the more I see, the less I know...." Word.

 

[Lionheart]

I realize that I was and am very blessed to have had such a wonderful, loving sister.
I realize that life will never be the same again.
I realize that I was a good brother and that I did the best I could for her.
I realize that love is gonna shine through, ....no matter what.

 

[Abstract]

I realize I thought I had developed assertiveness skills but in truth I was not the whole way there. I realize I was still stifling my myself.

 

[Teasel]

Wanna let go more.

 

[Abstract]

that even though I never saw myself as a victim there was victimisation and my lack of assertiveness has been a contributing factor. My efforts to always be fair and reasonable when others are just trying to get what they can for themselves at all costs. Hate those v words and they don't feel part of me but am starting to identify a feeling that does relate to victimisation.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I've/we've accumulated way too much of what I lovingly refer to as "foofy" shit, rather than functional shit. I'm of the mindset nowadays that if it's been in a box in the basement since we moved in, we obviously don't NEED it. Time for yet another purge to pay it forward to peeps who wanted it as badly as we did at one time, too.

Stuff = potential major energy vampires. It requires spending monetary energy for it, finding space for it, having to work around it, store it, clean it, maintain it, etc., etc. A song keeps going through my head as I take inventory, "These are a few of my (least) favorite things." lol