I Realize That I

[Tanishq]

I realize that my gut feeling is spot on today. Now no need of reverting to past mindset. Past mindset made me go through so many unnecessary and unwanted difficulties. Phew.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that I am now a self disciplined person who gets things done right away and no more procrastination. I love it that I have accomplished so many things that were so hard this past year. I also realized that I am finally growing up and maturing and I love this about myself now. Things that used to seem impossible to me I can do now quite easily and I am so grateful for all the years I have been trying to heal and recover and now the fruits of my hard work are starting to pay off in dividends. I love myself now and am free of so many bondages that once held me captive.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that it is time to move forward and to pat myself on the back for what I have accomplished on my own. After talking with my brother this past weekend, I realized how things are coming together for me.

Once upon a time, I thought about going to visit him after him being in the hospital for a month. I now know that would not have been a good idea. When he called and talked about my sister, I realized that no matter what his health is, I can no longer ignore me!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am beginning to get real memories of what I was really like as a small child, completely separate from how my parents defined and mistreated me. I was a wonderful little girl and I dissociated so much in the hard times and never could explain the gaps in my memory.

I realize that I really love myself as I am. When I first started therapy the little girl inside of me was dead.

But I have really good memories of the things I did by myself and now realize my oldest granddaughter is so much like me but so much healthier and happier.

I realize I am coming into my own now at long last and I am really glad I am finding so many good things about how I was really.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

My daughter now has PTSD from a one time domestic violence incidence. I am now aware that she is showing symptoms that are withdrawal and other symptoms. I can be more supportive to her now and much more patient and calm and I am formulating some questions to ask her. I want her to make another therapy appointment for herself.

I realize with the fibromyalga and the knee problems etc that it is hard for her to go right now. She is withdrawing into herself and has changed dramatically recently.

 

[Tanishq]

I realize that I really don't know what I need so I can steer up my life upwards. Honestly, I am at zero pointer.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that I have to start eating more healthy and walking on the treadmill. I need to lose the weight I gained caregiving for my husband and I have done it before. I need to begin using my muscles more and more. I really am determined to start doing something about this problem.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that I need to be extra careful with myself for the next several weeks until my neighbor has moved. I went to the store and bought some healthy food as I knew that I couldn't get ice cream everyday until then.

I realize that I needed to take my anxiety meds too as I can feel tension in my neck and back. I realize that this trauma with her began around 20 years ago. I realize that I was ready to do something about it when I went to see the realtor and now I know it wasn't me that needed to move.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize that the gripping fear & apprehension that comes upon me that involves the future (the future being any minute from now) includes the thought that things could be horrendous. If these or this is the 'good times'- that is, there have been times it is so horrendous, many times- & if it takes this much energy & so much energy out of me to handle these now, how will I ever be able to handle when those times occur again? :(

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realized that I still have remnants of being a people pleaser. I have to start working on this area of my life in order to draw healthier people to me. I have to work harder on setting boundries and limits.

 

[Privateer]

Cannot save everybody. This realisation makes precisely nothing any easier.

 

[Tanishq]

I realize that I need my girlfriend.