I Realize That I

[Tanishq]

I realize that I am feeling good this morning.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I forgot how to sleep. The night was a mixture of dozing and being restless.

I realize that I'm scared of death to dance. Most people in my surroundings love to dance but there's so much letting go in dancing that I just freeze.

 

[rainy_daze]

I realise that I have sat with the feeling of needing to scream, and survived it.

I realise that if someone asks me about my father, it is very difficult to hide my shock at being asked about him, after years of him not being in my life. I realise that I handled that situation quite well, as I didn't run away/escape/leave the building in a rage. I was honest without going into horrendous detail.

I am stronger than I realise sometimes. I put up a front more often than I realise, while simultaneously finding it difficult to hide my emotions when I'm more aware.

I realise I need to work on some things.

I realise that I am alive and I am thankful that I'm not dead.

I realise that I barely have any plans for the rest of the year, and that is quite sad to me, so I will try to find some interesting things to do.

 

[intothelight]

I realize that a period of struggle precedes each period of growth. It has to be uncomfortable to move out of it.

 

[Nighthawk]

I am a jerk when im triggered or my buttons get pushed too hard too fast. errgghhh:cry:

 

[The Albatross]

I realize that two intrusions onto our property in a week is a legitimate reason for some emotional disturbance. It isn't "just" because I've got PTSD.

 

[The Albatross]

I realize that I am able to extend myself to others even in grief. I'm a participant in my little world. I am not like our mother's ... not the center of it. My discomfort isn't more important than anybody elses. That is a good thing.

 

[intothelight]

Will eventually figure it out.......

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that it is going to take me some time for my brother's words to get to my heart.

I want to cry but I will take it slow as his words were so hurtful.

I realize that I saw a side to him that was so abusive that I realize it is time for me to let him go.

 

[Tanishq]

I realize that the woman I loved couple years ago was very nice to me. She had decency to tell me good bye, so I can move on from her and then go ahead without holding grudge behind. Wow. She isn't mine another half, but she taught me a lot about love. I just realized this. I am feeling much peace with it. I hope she is well today and doing well in her life.

 

[Recovery4Me]

I realize that a period of struggle precedes each period of growth. It has to be uncomfortable to move out of it.

I realized that I can own that quote above (thank you) and make it mine as well by accepting the process.

I realize that I now have the chance to heal and grow within an community that puts words, thoughts into action and assist one another with gentle guidance from a place of experience.

I realize that I may NOT feel always comfortable as I transition, that I may make mistakes, but I have never been able to be this real, honest and at the same time secure in acceptance of the trauma as part of my life.

Not being judged to whether or not I did enough to stop it, and having others talk to me about their trauma in connecting is life altering for healing. Thank you, everyone for being you, here and connecting.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I was dissociated during therapy yesterday.

I realize that I was so dissociated that I can't remember the homework writing assignment my therapist asked me to do. I can't even remember what the topic was that she wanted me to write about.