I Realize That I

[jaccat]

I realise that I have a right to be loved and cared for, and if I want other people to love me, I'm going to have to learn to love myself first.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I'm not able to spend a day without doing something productive...it's like something is forcing me to "work" in some way at least.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I get triggered and then I can't always control the impulsive words I end up saying that are based on the distorted thoughts that triggered me to begin with.

I realize that whether I can control my impulsive reactions and words or not they're not fair when I say them to people I care about.

I realize that I can sometimes tell when a thought is distorted and is triggering me. And sometimes I can't.

I realize that when I get triggered and suddenly say something to someone I care about and make them feel bad I feel a lot of shame. And then I beat myself up.

I realize that it makes me feel terrible when I say something to someone I care about and I make them feel bad.

I realize that I want to hate the people who traumatized me and caused me to have PTSD.

I realize that I'm too hypervigilant to let myself hate anyone. I feel like "good" people don't hate and I'll somehow be punished if I let myself hate people.

I realize that I don't really want to hate people because I decided a long time ago that hating people afforded them a degree of my concern. And I really don't want to bother giving people I don't like any kind of my concern.

 

[Tanishq]

I realize that I am learning so many things and I need to be patience with myself.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize how grateful I am that my neighbor lady moved out of state this past year.

I realize I do not have that comfort zone feeling with my new neighbors and am so nervous when we see each other outside to talk with another.

I realize that I have so much fear leftover from living next door to my neighbor lady. Now, I can see how I don't want to do or say anything to make them not like me.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that I was just triggered as I have to drive by my neighbor's house to get to the main street.

I was looking at my house and my new neighbor was coming out of their back door and looked back to see that I was looking in her direction. Of course, she doesn't realize that I was looking at how there was snow and ice on my windows from our last snow storm.

I realize that for the time being I might just take a different route until I have my balance about this situation.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that my best friend and I are like an old married couple. It's funny, relaxing and full of trust.

I realize that I don't perceive to move as quick as the world does nowadays.

I realize that I need more hugs than I expected.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I've been in trauma therapy for 2 years. And I think I'm starting to realize that when what my therapist calls the "automatic thoughts" of PTSD start I'm not supposed to try to ignore them suppress them fight with them try to change them distract them or try to convince them to stop. My therapist says I should ground myself instead.

I realize that the distorted thoughts that come automatically are symptoms of PTSD and not what I really actually think or believe.

I realize that there is no way to make an irrational thought rational because all an irrational thought knows how to be is irrational. Fighting with an irrational thought and trying to make it a rational thought isn't going to make it suddenly become a rational thought.

I think I realize that by grounding myself I'm encouraging my rational thoughts to become my more prominent thoughts. I think.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@BlackbirdSinging ...that is a major revelation! :hug: Congrats on this part of your journey.

 

[Anrish]

@BlackbirdSinging : That's a great step. Realizing stuff like this is the first step - and a really rational thought. :hug:

I realize that I might be in love. :cool:

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Anrish ...may the winds guide you to a gentle exploration.:hug:

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that as 01-10 gets closer to the anniversary of my mother's death, I realize that this will mean that I haven't talked to my sister in over 5 years and a few months.

We stopped talking prior to her death. I'm feeling what I need to because of what I went through at that time.

It is something that people just don't understand so I can keep it to myself as no one would believe how I heard the news and had to use the internet to get my information about her funeral.