I'm Feeling A Great Deal of Hope! Why?

[goingonhope]

THX, Junebug. ............"One Day At A Time."

Sometimes I think people who make comments like that not only can't handle death but really can't handle people "living", either.

Wholeheartedly Agree! ...though I wouldn't have thought of this myself.

Having all to frequently witnessed and experiencing such blatant disregard, makes me feel angry.

 

[goingonhope]

Today brought hope. And, I am absolutely thrilled with the woman, also professional which I met with this morning. Shouldn't even say anything more on this now, not until things get really rolling.

Also this evening, though by all appearance should've been extremely uncomfortable and somewhat distressing, it fact it turned out well, and I was more than comfortable, unusually so and not bc I was opening up about all warm and fuzzy stuff. In fact, appropriately, I briefly opened up about somethings amazingly traumatic and all in context.

Sh't the other night I spoke in front of a room full of 30 guys and 5 women, bc I'd been asked to and kept focused on exactly what I was there to share. I'm feeling happy about this, bc I even dealt well with all potential triggers.

Still without a smoke and haven't been taking nor too-seriously needing medicine. When and if I need to again, I hope I will, as it was originally prescribed to me as a PRN, (and later I required it more regulary for about 6 to 8 wks.,) and a PRN to nothing it will remain God willing, until one day, I never need that damn' medicine again; Maybe so, maybe no, but I can keep hoping, can't I, ....Why not!

 

[Tinyflame]

Hope, -that is so fantastic, -in so many ways! I have feeling this is like a tree with several branches of success stories to come, and all will support and reinforce you more.

..and hey, as far as "going smoke free"- you are my Hero, lol. Seriously.

Congratulations, hope! I am so happy for you :smile:

 

[morgan]

Right on Hope! I pray that things continue on like this for you. I think of you often.

 

[goingonhope]

Thanks Junebug and Morgan. Thank you for your support!

Today has been very good and the funny thing about this is that it's been most challenging regarding meeting other's necessary expectations and getting that work done.

Accomplished much, as well as, discovered the coolest thing. My 9 yr. old son needed a pair of boots and so when we went out and bought him a pair, we found that he now wears men's sizes. Wow!

....So we got him a pair of Muck boots at $80. and I was saying to the salesperson, this will be especially good bc as he grows out of them within 6 to 8 mo.'s, my daughter can then use them, .....bc they just so happen to be identical for either male or female; It wasn't registering that he was in Men's sizes until I saw within the boot that it read Mens 7 to 7 1/2 and Women's 8 to 8 1/2.

At this point I realize, heck' these are not going to fit his twin sister for another few yrs., but that they might fit me. No doubt, they do. So I turned over my only pair ever of quality sneakers, and he slides his foot in them and it was a perfect fit too, ...though I don't think I'll be giving them away. It's not like he's almost 10, instead he just turned 9. Difficult to comprehend some things, like growth and shoe sizes. (smiles)

Had a good time this evening with the children.

 

[goingonhope]

I did the most amazing thing yesterday, though really it's not so much any success from proactivity, but rather absolute despair.

I called someone I knew and asked for help and followed through. And, the help that I asked for was for this person to please help me make contact with another certain person, whom I fully trust is competent and just might've been available to offer the kind'of hope, support and information which I so desperately needed to survive that day.

This first very kind person did exactly this, and the other kind, quite life-experienced qualified, informed and thank heavens spiritual did exactly this and came through for me. Words can never reflect the kind of deep appreciation and life-time gratitude that I feel toward the first person I asked for help, the second person whom was of invaluable service and then tonight a wonderful, yet at one point heart-wrenching connection that was freely given me resulting from pure spirituality and service.

I never want to forget these people nor these last two days. Yesterday's suffering and help and tonights enormous support and help of me.

And, a woman and I listened to one another, with her very generously inviting me to open up and then listening to me. And, I was given the same opportunity to listen. And, even outside of her most generous service and help and that gift and time and understanding she freely gave me, I again, and yet more deeply tonight, got to see her truly exceptional spirit and really a lovely young woman.

I could cry right now, because it's been so long since I looked into the eyes of a woman that I didn't perceive and feel that she at all was fearful of, felt threatened by and/or appeared distrustful of me, and for no understandable, even valid reasons.

 

[ISupportHer]

Please Accept This Seed

This thread was bumped up because of your recent addition and caught my attention.

I am so glad to hear that you connected and were listened to. I do not know you or your situation but almost 2 years ago you posted that something, I think you said, that'd you would like to experience more of were seeds of compassion.

Please accept this "seed" or thoughts of compassion from a stranger.

That's one of the nice things here really. That faceless others respond to you and your feelings. It has helped me, I know that.

 

[goingonhope]

Thank you, ISupportHer!


Sincerely,
Hope

 

[pandora]

Great job Hope!!!!