I'm Going To Have To Go To Rehab

[sonicwhite]

but I don't think I have the will power to go. It's not as easy as dumping my pills in the toilet and withdraw along. I could have seizures and I don't abuse klonopin so if the doc has no problem giving it to me for my anxiety and panic disorder nobody here should either.


The fact of the matter is I have an addiction to gabapentin. I also have poly addictions to anything that will make me feel good but I have this ability to resist things and other thing are just too tempting.

I don't lust after women anymore. I kinda gave up on all that. It just switched to drugs and I know that rehab is going to be the only way out.. I don't know what I'm going to do. I know I'm going to get this out in the open with my therapist but I surely feel my drug addiction is effecting my life style and the ones around me.

 

[digger]

I think it's great that you're recognising the part that addictions play in your difficulties @sonicwhite. I hope your therapist will be able to find you the route to rehab and that you can stick with it.

 

[mary1979]

Awesome decision :)

You wont regret it, I feel like you could definitely use some tlc and good support while you pull yourself out of this hole.

Best of luck @sonicwhite, keep us all posted!

 

[sonicwhite]

I just need to realize that I have been self medicating this whole time. Not with klonopin but with gabapentin or anything that takes the pain away. I seriously need this because if I don't go I'll probably end up dead because I thought the easy way out was the best.

 

[scout86]

Good for you! That's the smartest post I've ever seen you make. You're making the right choice and everyone here will be pulling for you to succeed!

 

[EveHarrington]

I think you're taking positive steps in the right direction.

Remember, one day at a time, step by step.

:hug:

:)