2jacobusgirls
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MEDIATION IS ON, basically I'm in the middle of a lawsuit that came from an accident that was not my fault on dec 16 2011. Since then I have had rfa and so many shots 5 doctors and 2 back surgery's to my l5 s1, l3/4 and fusion with rods and metal hard ware. Before my surgery the pain was debilitating to no degree, but after surgery I was on a walker for 6 weeks and felt great then I go finally take my first step into walking and well surgery to come, so now moving forward, and kinda bringing it up to date as of today.
THIS BELOW IS A EMAIL I RECENTLY SENT TO A FRIEND SO I FIGURED ITS MY BEST WAY OF EXPLAINING WHAT THE FEELINGS I MENTALLY DEALING WITH THAT SEEM SO HARD,, LIKE I MIGHT BE LOSING MY MIND LOL..
But then I get my feet burning and going numb and still another to come see you for a bit and say hello and tie any loose ends up that may be needed, I have issues with my feet and I can't drive more then 11 or so miles with them getting flush red and tingling and it would be fair to say that me driving to the easy coast 250 miles or 500 mile round trip is very scary to me when I not comfortable with my feet.
R, everything I have put below in this email has been sent to @@@@ as well though you seem to understand most of what I have told you in the past. And I hoping you might shed some light towards another avenue in which I should go from my mental sanity. When speaking in the past you have been threw a lot and without causing harm to my case not sure when to stop or go and when to ask for help outside the doctors that are already on board.
I have some new information on my case from my primary doctor ( not doctor $$$$ who has retired) . Dr. *** who is not on an lop or have any of my records but based on my vists with him in the last few months and then records he did get from prior doctor on monthly vists he thinks I'm suffering with Ptsd. He explained that a lot of it is the lasting effects of this car accident without closer and results that have been changing from last time I saw Dr.ORTHOPEDIC and I do in fact think he is right. I keep moving in circles in my head with out the ability to complete tasks and it is affecting my everyday life. I feel out of control and it's scary to me.
Like my life is just moving with out me and I am nervous and very anxious about doing anything. Something as simple as getting mother's day cards out becomes a huge mountain to climb. And I'm either totally in the I don't give a crap attitude about things or I seem to get triggered and then I can't stop crying. I feel like I'm going crazy one way or the other though I know I have gotten check and evaluation lol and doctors agree Amy you our not crazy just been threw alot and peeks and valleys don't help this is somewhat normal.
This is put out there for you to understand that in my deposition and Michael knows this and saw a bit of it, I swing into a full blown panic attack and my hands shake and I loose grip with conversation and it sounds like on snoopy the bird going wah wah wah wah and get confused. I feel like something else is running my life and I sit in the passenger seat and just watch from the window like quick sand.
The pain was debilitating before surgery and is sitting on a 6 everyday since with my feet but also the mental part is like a 7 if I to rate on how much that controls my life. I know this is alot to say but I felt it was appropriate that you understand the full extent to how this running my life. I need to get my life under control without fearing every move I make.
This seems to come and go but more recently getting worse and I'm worried nervous scared and everything after my accident it so blurry down to my 2 daughters bday parties last year, when my oldest speaks of a memory.. I DRAW A BLANK... ANY COMMENTS
THIS BELOW IS A EMAIL I RECENTLY SENT TO A FRIEND SO I FIGURED ITS MY BEST WAY OF EXPLAINING WHAT THE FEELINGS I MENTALLY DEALING WITH THAT SEEM SO HARD,, LIKE I MIGHT BE LOSING MY MIND LOL..
But then I get my feet burning and going numb and still another to come see you for a bit and say hello and tie any loose ends up that may be needed, I have issues with my feet and I can't drive more then 11 or so miles with them getting flush red and tingling and it would be fair to say that me driving to the easy coast 250 miles or 500 mile round trip is very scary to me when I not comfortable with my feet.
R, everything I have put below in this email has been sent to @@@@ as well though you seem to understand most of what I have told you in the past. And I hoping you might shed some light towards another avenue in which I should go from my mental sanity. When speaking in the past you have been threw a lot and without causing harm to my case not sure when to stop or go and when to ask for help outside the doctors that are already on board.
I have some new information on my case from my primary doctor ( not doctor $$$$ who has retired) . Dr. *** who is not on an lop or have any of my records but based on my vists with him in the last few months and then records he did get from prior doctor on monthly vists he thinks I'm suffering with Ptsd. He explained that a lot of it is the lasting effects of this car accident without closer and results that have been changing from last time I saw Dr.ORTHOPEDIC and I do in fact think he is right. I keep moving in circles in my head with out the ability to complete tasks and it is affecting my everyday life. I feel out of control and it's scary to me.
Like my life is just moving with out me and I am nervous and very anxious about doing anything. Something as simple as getting mother's day cards out becomes a huge mountain to climb. And I'm either totally in the I don't give a crap attitude about things or I seem to get triggered and then I can't stop crying. I feel like I'm going crazy one way or the other though I know I have gotten check and evaluation lol and doctors agree Amy you our not crazy just been threw alot and peeks and valleys don't help this is somewhat normal.
This is put out there for you to understand that in my deposition and Michael knows this and saw a bit of it, I swing into a full blown panic attack and my hands shake and I loose grip with conversation and it sounds like on snoopy the bird going wah wah wah wah and get confused. I feel like something else is running my life and I sit in the passenger seat and just watch from the window like quick sand.
The pain was debilitating before surgery and is sitting on a 6 everyday since with my feet but also the mental part is like a 7 if I to rate on how much that controls my life. I know this is alot to say but I felt it was appropriate that you understand the full extent to how this running my life. I need to get my life under control without fearing every move I make.
This seems to come and go but more recently getting worse and I'm worried nervous scared and everything after my accident it so blurry down to my 2 daughters bday parties last year, when my oldest speaks of a memory.. I DRAW A BLANK... ANY COMMENTS
