Is this unusual?

[beaneeboo]

2.5 years into intensive trauma therapy for dissociative disorder. I am getting memories surfacing in different forms. I've understood trauma processing is the second stage for this type of therapy. But there is a HUGE resistance to me and my parts sharing anything with T. I've shared little bits here abs there but very little. I think it must nashe his job harder.

Anyway I've noticed others here including those with dissociative disorders, so tend to share some level of detail to at least be able to patch some things together to make sense of the fragments and tu process.

I just can't seem to in any meaningful way even though we meet 2 hours a week every week.

Am I doing something wrong? Is anyone else in this position? Did anyone else have a breakthrough?

I'm just feeling like a bit of a freak and wondering if it's wasting his time

 

[Sues]

I have such a hard time sharing with my therapist. It's so hard to say the words. I freeze up and physically brace for danger any time I have the really bad memories come up. I often dread going into the therapy room, not because of my therapist, he's great, and he's safe. But because I know this is where I'm supposed to bring up and deal with the memories. I spend all week trying to keep them locked away and push them down so I can survive and function. It's a struggle to get words out, to talk about even what I'm feeling when the memories are there.

I don't know if this helps, but I know what it's like to not be able to share memories with anyone, even my therapist.