Death My Sister Died Last Night

[joeylittle]

@recoveringfromptsd - is there a way to be proactive about readmittance to Sheppard Pratt?

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

@joeylittle Not that I know of

I actually spoke with the national hotline last night to hash out some of this and where things stand with my providers. My T is on a week off, so I won't see her for another 8 days. But part of the conversation I had with the hotline was about being even more open with my T about my thoughts, as opposed to just being open on inquiry. I guess I have kind have used that to keep them from forcing me in the hospital. But the longer this goes on the more clear it becomes that's probably where I need to be right now.

The problem is being in the right hospital. Being at PRMC will just cause me to withdraw and lock up my mind from anyone. But it is the first place they will turn too. PRMC's unit is a small unit, and impossible to get away from constant triggers, so it is like being in a torture chamber, and the two docs are worthless, and I can't stand them. and they have no therapy or treatment so it's just a warehouse that works well if your psychotic or manic and need meds adjusted, but it is not very help for me.

So I would refuse to even see them. So it is a bad place for me to be. Getting back into pratt is a stretch, as it is a highly competitive place when it comes to getting in. And it takes weeks or months. And the chances of me being forced in hospital before that can occur are probably high.

I think the only way I can avoid PRMC is to refuse and being committed, as the chances of being sent to cambridge at the state hospital is high, but if bed space is lacking the way it works here in this state is I can be placed at any hospital involuntarily that has beds available and that includes PRMC.

 

[joeylittle]

@recoveringfromptsd - Sheppard isn't the only trauma treatment center in the US.

I'd encourage you to do some poking around - here and on the web. Am I remembering correctly that you initially reached out to Pratt on your own?

I understand that everything is a stretch - mental health care in the US (as elsewhere) is stretched thin.

You've written a number of times that you believe inpatient is the right place for you right now. It's really, really great that you have the self-awareness to know that.

Putting energy into creating that next step will both give you options other than PRMC, and will be an active form of self care. Engaging in the search will help.

Do you think you could give it a try?

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

@recoveringfromptsd I have NOT abandoned you! I went through a period of "wanting out" myself.... and came REALLY CLOSE to admitting myself....

The TRAPPED FEELING is one that I am WAY TOO FAMILIAR WITH!!!

It STINKS and that's the nice way of saying it!

I don't know why I don't get notifications of your posts.... I am going to see if I can figure that out! I "fixed" the problem of getting notified of your new postings. It didn't help that our internet has been down more than up!!! As of today, it is FIXED!

Actually, I hope you haven't stopped coming by, because you decided to go inpatient. It's NOT the worst thing to happen. I have "been there" 3 times and almost there another "handful" of times.

I am STILL AMAZED at how quickly I can "flip out"! I MUST figure out how to stop the "boiling lava" that rises to the point of erupting! This last time was worse than I remember having! I scared the crap outta myself!!!

The ONLY thing that kept me out, was knowing that my son wouldn't be able to reach me, and he is halfway around the world! It wouldn't be fair to him. He has enough on his plate.

Your inbox is full....I tried to send you a PM.

PLEASE KEEP COMING BACK?!? I am PRAYING TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON!!!

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I was hospitalized two weeks ago, after being taken to the ER the night before, just got d/c today.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

@recoveringfromptsd - Sheppard isn't the only trauma treatment center in the US....

Did not have much choice two weeks ago thursday night taken to ER at PRMC, and transferred to the only available bed that could be found, at PIW (Wash dc) 3 hrs away. It turns out they have a trauma unit, I was not on it, but they were trauma informed and I got to work with the trauma therapist.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

I am SOOO GLAD that you were able to get some intense inpatient care! You ARE WORTH the work!

PLEASE keep working towards being the best you can be! You have been through a lot and have proved that you ARE a survivor!

It hasn't been easy AT ALL, but you MADE IT!!!:hug:

 

[Deleted member 37085]

thanks you all for the support

Have been unknowingly until now battling failing thyroid (just had tested) and completed 16 ses. Emdr; and now dealing also with NAFL disease (reocurring) which causes horrible, nausea, fatigue, etc.) and I so apologize for missing your post about your sister's death. My prayers are finally now with you @recoveringfromptsd over the passing of your so wonderfully supportive sister. My sister has never shown me an ounce of support (she has severe trauma too) and you are so blessed to have experienced such a wonderful bond of love and support from her (your beloved sister). (((HUGS)))! JJ

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

@JadesJewel Thanks, Get well.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I am so glad all you wonderful peers are here, I have had a lot of dark times, and this forum has given me something to hang onto. I have to wonder what might happen without it. This has been a literal lifeline for me more than once.

at the moment I am doing good. But have not yet returned to the hard core therapy. But looking forward to it.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

I BELIEVE that YOU ARE A LOT smarter than you know. I doubt if it was pointed out much like it should have been....:hug:

Treat yourself kindly? I am trying to try... to do that

Later...

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

thanks