Numbers

[Lucycdf]

since i was a small child, parents going through a divorce, x 5 of anything, always went through all the last conversations in the evening/day and made them into divisibles of 5, even if I had to rearrange them to suit the x5 that made me able to sleep. That’s coming back. That was when I was 8 to 15 years old. I had a violent relationship, rape, when I was 23 and then had to run away and have been single til I’m 50. And now I’m in another relationship that has become very quickly abusive, and as he is in the UK, with my dog that he bought me, that he also beat once, along with me, and yes I called the police and they reported it and took me away from that. I’ve had to come back to work in theUS and leave that dog with him. Basically because the dog has a broken elbow and nobody wants to take the responsibility of it, and I can’t lose my job. I’m suffering anxiety, sleeplessness, my blood pressure is 154/113 because if this. And yes I’m on meds. I know the answer is to get him away from the dog but the air packages aren’t safe either. It is making me ill, what do I do????

 

[Friday]

Since i was a small child, parents going through a divorce, x 5 of anything, always went through all the last conversations in the evening/day and made them into divisibles of 5, even

Have you ever been evaluated for OCD, or do you have any other diagnoses aside from PTSD?

I know the answer is to get him away from the dog but the air packages aren’t safe either. It is making me ill, what do I do????

might happen -vs- is happening.
accident -vs- abuse

 

[mindys1550]

Hi
You have to stay away. I understand why you are worried about the dog but you have to take care of yourself first. If doing the numbers helps your stress then use that as a tool. Do anything healthy that makes you feel better. I obsessively play games online because it easies my stress but there is honestly nothing bad about doing that. So find something that does not hurt you but distracts you and stay safe. Safe is important.

 

[Fadeaway]

It is my understand that shipping an animal overseas is actually fairly safe. I belong to a pet forum that includes some very serious breeders and and shipping animals from Europe to introduce healthier lines to the U.S. is quite common. They love their animals and take the health and safety of their animals during flight very serious. It it was me, I would seriously be looking into what the best way to fly your dog over her would be.

I do not have any experience with this company, and I am not promoting them, just pointing out that companies like this exist. You could call an animal shelter in the U.K. tell them that you do is at risk and ask if they would perform the health examination. I don't know if it is possible but that is where I would start.

 

[whiteraven]

I can relate to the number thing. I used to do it almost on a constant basis (counting) when I was very young until I was in my 30s or so, but it was much more intense when I was stressed and/or anxious. Odd numbers for me. Therapy really did help me. I still do it, but it mostly happens kind of "under the radar" so I don't really know that I'm doing it as much as I used to.

When I notice myself focusing on odd numbers or avoiding even ones, I just allow it these days instead of fighting it or feeling bad about it. It helps the anxiety.

 

[mindys1550]

I think the number thing is kind of interesting. I did it for distraction. I loved math so I would play with numbers. I would find out what number each letter stood for in a word. For example, m would be 13 and a would be 1 and t would 20 and h is 8. I would double numbers like 2+2 is 4 and 4+4 is 8 etc. It just kept my mind busy and then I couldn't think so much. I didn't have any favorite numbers or numbers that I didn't like.

 

[whiteraven]

I think the number thing is kind of interesting. I did it for distraction. I loved math so I would p...

Oh yeah. Did that, too. As a matter of fact, my friend and I constructed a whole written language based on each letter's numeric position in the alphabet.