Off To Warrior. Apprehensive

[Deleted member 20280]

Well, it's taken twenty four years to finally get recognition fron the Armed Forces but now I do.

The last week has been a whirlwind of appointments and assessments and today I travel to start a three day intensive therapy course (The Warrior Programme) set up by the UK military for Veterans with PTSD.

Although I am keen as hell to go and learn as much as I can, I am nervous as hell. Especially as I have to catch two trains to het to the College. Nervous as I am already I have just realised that the second train I catch is the train my own two teenage daughters will be getting off on their journey home from high school. Problem, as they get off I will.be getting on. Bigger problem, My Ex has a court order against me from seeing her or the kids. Solution! I have phoned the solicitor and advised them that this.is happening. I am travelling with nother Veteran so I will at least have a witness with me at all times in case of false allegations (which is very likely)

However my anxiety index is peaking at 7 again. Heres hoping for non-confrontation hey.

I will be popping in and out of the forum over the next few days.

Take care MyPtsd family and friends.

Remember, the world has two constants..... love and :giggle:s :).

So I will leave a big box of Santa :hug:s under the stairs in the chat room for anyone who wants one whilst I am away.

Santa

 

[J_trustno1]

Take care @Santa_Laurie , you can do it. We believe in ya :) :hug:s

 

[Recovery4Me]

You rock, Santa_Laurie! I am so excited that you are ceasing this opportunity to heal and conquering the obstacles one by one to reach your destination. No wonder that you are Santa and in charge of finding a way to share the luv!

Hugs respectively given back to you during this victorious campaign.:hug: One train ride at a time!

 

[nursenurse]

Good luck Laurie. I will offer my prayers for you :)

 

[Recovery4Me]

ceasing this opportunity to heal an

I am so SORRY....lol...I meant seizing. OMG.:wideeyed:

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Arrived and settled in.

Only one spot on campus with strong enough signal for internet so won't on forum much.

Meds taken and starting to work. Anxiety still 7/10 but working on it. Shame the docs mistreated me for two decades.

Keen to start tomorrow and really.want this to be a turning point for me. I may come across as a jolly ole santa most of the time but this really is going to be Laurie facing his demons.

 

[ghotiff]

I am sending lots of support your way.

 

[xena21]

Good for You! I wish you the best!!

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Day one completed.

Shattered but feeling very motivated now as I had "lightbulb" moment.

Dinner was the highlight...... sticky toffee pudding with ice cream...... shhhhhh don't tell my diet partners...... ;)

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Day two, nerves rattling but gonna focus on me for a change.

Catch you all later.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Really bad morning session. Don't honestly know if I can carry on. Gotta try but scared to tears I will crack.

Gonna push myself as hard as I can, won't be easy. If I can get through next session I should be ok.

 

[The Albatross]

Center down and remember your motivation to negotiate the next hurdle/obstacle. Let it be and be willing to be uncomfortable. It is for a finite time Laurie.... then self care.