I sleep with the tv on it grounds me
I used to do this, sort of still do. At some point the Canadian broadcast standards council, decided to loosen the rules on television advertising. This resulted in much longer commercial breaks. As well as no volume normalisation. It became this infuriating game of guessing when the commercials would roll, turning the volume down so I don't get the shit scared out of myself. Then turning up the volume so I could actually hear the show well enough to not tune it out too much. Sleep is elusive as it is, without having to do all of that. Now I despise television.
I have since switched to youtube and Twitch.tv much, much better. Both services have ad removal options. No more commercial guessing game.
Or I start to think of bad things that could happen
This. The other thing I have been getting lately is wonderful obsessive thoughts on how to permanently silence all of this mental noise. Suicidal ideation, in other words.
The little title under my avatar. "Thanatophobic" From thanatophobia, the fear of the moment of death. Doesn't matter how. Thinking that moment when life stops. Is unbelievably terrifying to me.
Whether it's in 30 seconds from now from a piano falling on me. 40-50 years from now as a decrepit old fart.
Natural causes, tragic accident, violent crime. Irrelevant to me. Just knowing one day it will be over, not knowing where I will go, if anywhere. Scary.
Me to, me to. (Or is it too?) Grr, why can't I remember how to write english?
It was my best subject in school. :banghead:
Not to mention, it's also my primary language. (Sorry, rambling again. Tired today.)