speedyheart
New Here
Hi all,
First time poster here. Last Thursday, I had a catheter ablation for SVT. I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder and was obviously terrified going into it. I was administered twilight s station, but it didn't do a darned thing, and I was awake and alert for the entire 4.5 hour heart procedure.
The positives: I had an amazing medical team, and my doctor was nothing short of amazing. He is genuinely a caring, funny, compassionate man who was able to do his best to deal with my anxiety. Even though it was an awful experience, I am glad that he was by my side the whole time. Plus, the procedure was a success! Which is great news.
The negatives: I remember everything. From the terror I felt signing my consent to the 4.5 hours of surgery. I remember everything. And now I will randomly start crying at the drop of a hat. I cannot be alone - I just made my poor husband sit in the bathroom while I showered! I feel a slight twinge and start panicking. And if I'm not distracted I start recalling every little detail, reliving the fear and the sounds.
I realize time will be a huge component - it hasn't even been a week out. I'm already in therapy which clearly is a bonus :) Anyone else ever been awake during something similar? I think I just feel like such a burden on my friends and family because I'm so scared of being alone.
Thanks for your time!
First time poster here. Last Thursday, I had a catheter ablation for SVT. I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder and was obviously terrified going into it. I was administered twilight s station, but it didn't do a darned thing, and I was awake and alert for the entire 4.5 hour heart procedure.
The positives: I had an amazing medical team, and my doctor was nothing short of amazing. He is genuinely a caring, funny, compassionate man who was able to do his best to deal with my anxiety. Even though it was an awful experience, I am glad that he was by my side the whole time. Plus, the procedure was a success! Which is great news.
The negatives: I remember everything. From the terror I felt signing my consent to the 4.5 hours of surgery. I remember everything. And now I will randomly start crying at the drop of a hat. I cannot be alone - I just made my poor husband sit in the bathroom while I showered! I feel a slight twinge and start panicking. And if I'm not distracted I start recalling every little detail, reliving the fear and the sounds.
I realize time will be a huge component - it hasn't even been a week out. I'm already in therapy which clearly is a bonus :) Anyone else ever been awake during something similar? I think I just feel like such a burden on my friends and family because I'm so scared of being alone.
Thanks for your time!