Ptsd From Being In A Police Station

[daisychain23]

opps a daisy . I cant say I d rather die.. .. watch the video of Steffi hope being raped by police and then tell me that you wouldn't need help after that experience.. I d rather hope that I sleep and never wake up after that happening to me.. but being America.. forums cant allow people to watch that.. and why.. BECAUSE ITS f*ckING RAPE BY THE POLICE..

 

[Queen Boudica]

Get yourself to a hospital and tell them how you are. You need emergency help

 

[daisychain23]

WELL THANKS FOR ALL YOUR HELP.. ( IM BEING SACASTIC,) I HOPE I DURING MY SELF HARM TODAY THAT I DIE IN PEACE.

 

[daisychain23]

HOSPITAL DOES NOTHING.. IVE SPOKEN TO THE PSYCH TEAM AT HOSPITAL AND THEY DO NOTHING..

 

[Queen Boudica]

Not surprised with your attitude. Until you listen you are beyond help. Go back to the hospital show them your posts tobthis forum and your threats of suicide. That's all I'm saying

 

[Chava]

AND IM PREPARED TO TRAVEL FOR THERAPY.. HOW DARE YOU SUGGEST THAT I DONT OR WOULDNT

I didn't. Not sure why you're "yelling" in caps about it.

I HAVE LOOKED FOR PLACES IN MY LOCAL AREA AND FURTHER. THAT MIGHT HELP ME AND THERE ARE NONE.. HENCE THE WEB HELP. I WAS SKEPTICAL BUT TRIED

What of any suggestions here have you tried since last night?

NOTHING WORKS.

Okay, what do you want us to say or offer? Maybe you can give us some suggestions what you need or what you think will work (aside from nothing). What were you hoping people would say or suggest?

Ditto Lizio...please call your doctor again and tell him/her what you have said in your last couple posts. Or call the local ER, have a friend take you, or go yourself to the hospital to ask for help. Print all of this off if it's easier that way.

 

[Chava]

Also, I took a couple seconds to pull some of this out for you. You have attacked almost everyone who has offered suggestions here. But these responses are not abuse. It's "support". If they aren't the answers you wanted, it doesn't mean we weren't trying to be helpful. Still many good ideas and links here, I believe.

I send you a :hug: to comfort if you accept it.

Research here for posts similar to yours. Use the Search feature and type in keywords.

Do you have to try everything? Of course not. If you picked half a dozen coping techniques and really give them a try while you're waiting for therapy might it help? I'd like to think so. As alone as it feels, what will help you is probably not completely unique.

I've tried seemingly ridiculous things because I had to try something different. If nothing else, simply to feel like I had the power to do something and try to change....in small but very important ways this tells my nervous system that I am not fundamentally trapped in the past or old patterns. It takes a long process of many small and consistent efforts (in my experience).

Can you take one suggestion that you haven't tried and approach it with the mindset that you will give yourself a chance?

daisychain23, you could try working your way through this website: http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/ . There's a ton of good material there, specifically about how to notice your thoughts and emotions while they are happening in a way that allows you to turn down the dial on their intensity.

You can also try working through a workbook. I actually don't have any trauma books I've worked thru myself, but that's a pretty focused search you could do here...Here's one that looks pretty good: Link Removed. Do a search for trauma therapy books, you'll see good ideas.

There are great lists of techniques for controlling self-harm - here's a thread to get you started:
Self Harm - Help Me Understand

what to do about the Flashbacks -or videos in your head. The advice I received in the early days was to use distraction. Playing games on the computer that need a bit of concentration helped. I could not achieve the targets in the games while the pictures where there so had to 'push them aside' which I could only do for a wee while at a time. Also apparently daft things like going out for a walk with a friend. Alone is no good as your mind wanders. Then there were other physical things like making a cake, doing a jigsaw, clearing out one cupboard or one drawer.

I understand that you are on a waiting list for therapy, but have you also investigated therapy from Charities that support victims of rape? I don't have experience with them myself but I know there are other UK members on here that have, and have found them helpful.

If you feel you would like to share more about the rapes, there is a specific section of the forum for sexual assault where other like-minded members are sharing their stories.

If you feel you need hospitalisation and the self-harm is getting out of control and it sounds like you are saying that from your last post then go to the hospital emergency. Self-harm is not the answer but I can see you have had virtually no help in this and your GP should have got you help as soon as the childhood rape was reported. It is better to ask for help than to be forced, is what I am trying to get across. So seek hospital help if you need it. Sound like you have been left pretty much on your own trying to deal with this.

Are there any charities to support you, you are a victim of abuse from your father, is it that bad in the UK now that there is no immediate counselling available, for victims of childhood abuse? Can anyone in the UK point her to something in her area? Surely the GP should be able to point her to some local services??? Is the GP aware of the self-harm because then maybe he would be able to get access to services quicker?

And I'm sorry @daisychain23 I don't think I have anything super profound to offer beyond what has already been stated. Sometimes just focusing on the moment, minute, hour to get to the next is all that you can do. Try to find things that you can take comfort in - a scent you like, a fabric you like - and you focus on that. When your mind starts to wander see if you can identify something in your current surrounding to bring you back. This can be something as simple as a picture frame on the wall, a plant, etc. These are just simple mindfulness techniques.

I agree it's worthwhile asking your GP about local resources. And you can always post here - I know this experience may not have been what you were looking for, but please know that everyone was well intentioned, it's just a complicated situation in which we find ourselves.