Really Weird Experience.

[EMDR Experience]

Hey everyone. I've been doing emdr for over four years for childhood abuse leading to adult ptsd. It's been going well and my therapist and I have gotten into a good rythmn and groove.

Yesterday the only symptom I had was a body memory of someone lying on top of me pinning my arms to my chest and the feeling of vaginal abuse. I had no visual. Emotional presentation was just of fear. While we were processing with eye movements I felt like I was also having a dream about a session. Like both things were happening at the same time and I was present in both.

I'm pretty sure this doesn't make sense but I don't know how to describe it. It was time for the session to be over and I seemed to be ok to my therapist but as he rolled his chair back away from me to work on the invoice I suddenly felt so weird. It triggered something. I don't remember anything but leaving and sitting in the parking lot for 20 minutes. I called a friend because I felt to strange. I made it home and slept for 3 hours.

Has anyone ever had this dual experience? Sorry for rambling.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I had a flashback, jumped backwards over a chair, hudled in a corner saying "dont hurt me", seeing my therapist as my step dad...he looked just like him for what seemed to be forever but I guess it was just about 5 mins

But never dual experience but it doesnt suprise me. Its memory intergration, weird things are gonna happen and we may feel off or tired after. I only did it once but just what EMDR is, it doesnt suprise me in the least. It sounds also a half flashback or a sensory flashback or something up that alley.

During flashbacks i commonly have pain down there and it will last days with no physical injury today. Our body remembers so to have emotional/body experiences doesnt sound odd or weird.

Did you get to advise your therapist? If not i would your next session. They can explain what all can occur and why so that way you arent suprised by much.

 

[samson]

Thanks for answering. I let my therapist know via text that something weird happened. But sometimes he is over busy and I would need to remind him to respond to me. This may be on of those times and since it's not affecting me in a crippling way we can talk about it at next session. I'm not really sure how to describe it for him anyway.

I too have had pain for days and arousal that seems to not stop. It may sound cool to some, but it's absolutely disgusting in this context. I am prone to dissociate, but that hasn't happened for a very long time. We have been making tremendous progress working through things with my abusive mother. It's the sexual abuse memories that give me the most trouble and that my brain fights the most. I was hoping we were through those, but they have come back around. I do feel stronger now to process them. Your brain is an amazing thing. But it's hard to trust the process when it seems so painful and scary.

 

[samson]

BTW @lostforgottensoul, what did your therapist do when you had that flashback in session?