I must add that really I am not safe now, I constantly feel threatened, animal terror, even at home. And this threat I began to feel after retraumatization, after trying to work through traumas related to my mother. Now I am terrified of my mother, because all my years she had keys to my apartment and would come whenever she wanted...
@Rudolf - it's good to remind yourself that you can call the police, if your mother or brother come and threaten you physically.I am constantly afraid at home that she will come with her brother and take me somewhere by force. I know the law now, and I can call the police, but I still live in fear every day. And with this fear, I think no defense will open to injury. I'm on adrenaline all the time.
When you say you are not safe now - do you mean that you are in danger of hurting yourself, physically?