Self Hatred

[Deleted member 1860]

The hatred seems to be gone for now. I'm still learning more and more----my self hatred is linked to my obsessive thinking. I'm back on meds now, and with just the first dose I felt so much relief! My mind isn't stuck on overdrive with thoughts of self hate. It feels great!

 

[jbrowning]

how to value myself when most of my earliest teachings were the opposite.
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how are we meant to believe that we're worth anything, when we spent our formative years being told we weren't.

Thank you both for your posts and for this thread. I found the items above really helpful in giving me a specific item to think about. This feels like it is going to be key to me uderstanding reasons behind why I think and react the way I do.

I appreciate you helping me take another step down the path.

 

[ms spock]

One of the reasons I put my picture out there was to get into my own skin and be comfortable...instead of feeling like a horrible beast. I have to say, it has truly been enlightening. Nothing horrible happened. The world didn't fall apart. I hated myself that much to think I shouldn't even be out in person. That was the shame I had. I say had, because I am getting through it. I've received support from people on here and even other's put themselves out there. I didn't feel so alone. That is what I needed. No one told me I wasn't hideous, and I wouldn't have believed them if they did. What I did feel was this amazing support system. And, like I said, the world didn't fall apart.

That is very brave of you Britt.f7

 

[ms spock]

Reading back over this thread reminds me that I have improved immensely about this whole self hatred thing.

 

[Abstract]

Me too Ms Spock and I can see it in you too. I have troubles with it but it isn't that terrible constant despairing self hatred. When I am there it never feels like it can be any better either. I was thinking about the other self hatred thread and thought I might read it to get perspective for me.