Tiny Daily Wins

[SeekingAfrica]

Hi! I am really struggling right now. I really need to be productive and I am deep in a depression wave. Some days are easier and others not. Started dental antibiotic too and that doesn't help, the mix with my other meds even on probiotic is rough, even if it helps. I'm also broke and trying to make the week on carb staples from what I have in my pantry and gathering enough for bread.

Started the antibiotic yesterday, so today is rough. Hoping I can write my daily achievements on here in hopes to get more done, maybe get support?
God knows, my view of myself and what I achieve right now is not too high. But I have to keep going so... here I am.
Made a gratitude log in my planner too. I'm going what I can. Taking a nap now but hope to return to the doing part after.

If anyone is feeling the same and want to share their wins that is cool too- let's do thing together!
Today I need to apply for jobs, design for my shop, do chores, workout and still mediate this foggy feeling that depression plus antibiotics give me. Right now I'm taking a break but will update today. Heppy day to everyone, hope we do good things today.

 

[Tinyflame]

Try to get rest too @SeekingAfrica .Sometimes it's very helpful to do what you can but to let go of problems a bit too.

 

[Ecdysis]

Yah, I get it... You know what? Yesterday I ended up doing one of my total avoidance tasks... A task I've been procrastinating on for weeks and weeks and it's ridiculously overdue. I got most of it done yesterday, and was pretty happy with that. But before I went to bed last night, I realised I'd done part of it wrong... So I invested an hour's work in that bit of it, that I'll have to re-do today... Omg... I can barely find the words for having actually managed to DO the flipping task, only to have my depression muddled brain have me doing it wrong and needing to do it over.... aaaaaargh....

Anyway, I'd better just go and DO it ... AGAIN...

I'll check in later and hope you're being kind to yourself, with whatever level of achievement is happening today.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

Sometimes it's very helpful to do what you can but to let go of problems a bit too.

Thank you so much! The way today is I think I must do my best to do that. I think it will be one of those days. If I don't release a little something will blow up in a worse way.

I can barely find the words for having actually managed to DO the flipping task,

I can relate, did so many of those in the year before 2020, I was so proud.... Also quite a few later on but still not as many. Mine for this year has been dentist. Totally my fault but I was too anxious. Avoid avoid avoid... here we are today. I have many dental issues to cover one by one... However, I am proud because I've had many issues for a while and still couldn't go- and since July I've been at the dentist twice a month, 5 times the first month actually. So am I lucky in doctor? Yes. But also, I am proud that something I was avoiding like the plague is becoming even normal some times (we are excluding this week with the stupid infection on another tooth). But still. That is one thing I have conquered this year.
And I'm slowly fixing my dental issues one by one, even the painful ones like this one. At least I'm not avoiding and hoping it goes away.

Anyway, I'd better just go and DO it ... AGAIN...

Gooood luck, you can do it!! I'm sure it would feel so good after!

I'll check in later and hope you're being kind to yourself, with whatever level of achievement is happening today.

Thank you. It won't be much.
Did few dishes, archiving of some of the documents I had divided in piles earlier this year, some dusting. Bought bread because I can't make myself cook.
For the most part there will be lots of work on that 2$ gig from the couch and many breaks. I might take a bath or do yoga, maybe journal. As it was last time on this antibiotic, for day 1 I just feel relief, but also weak physically and sleepy... so I need a break even if I can't afford one.
I'm doing the best I can today, when I can and that has to be good enough.

 

[Ecdysis]

Well done on facing your avoidance issue (the dentist) - that's huge!

Well done on dishes, archiving, dusting, grocery shopping and for doing paid work.

They're all achievements and they all mean you're not just stuck, spinning your wheels and catastrophising.

And honestly, during these really shitty crisis phases, I think it's even an accomplishment when we don't have a melt down and don't do things that are maladaptive and don't do things that make our situation worse. I think we forget to value and validate those "not doing" things as accomplishments too!

And yes.... I re-did yesterday's task and finished it and I'm very relieved it's done... I've got a headache from it tho and my shoulders are super tensed up. I'm going to take my dog for a bike ride and get some fresh air and sunshine and hopefully that will help a bit.

Hope you're making some progress and are also taking breaks and doing self-care to invest in yourself.

 

[Defaultxlove]

Worked out
ate breakfast.
Remembered to take supplements. Drank tea instead of coffee which is better for me.

And sent the text I didn’t want to send that holds someone accountable (they hate this)

 

[Ecdysis]

Well done @Defaultxlove !

And thanks for the reminder re supplements... I'd forgotten those - and more importantly meds... eek...

 

[Defaultxlove]

Haha @Ecdysis thank you and seriously you’ve reminded me to take my anxiety med

 

[SeekingAfrica]

for doing paid work.

I couldn't. I took a break for bath and I broke. Like crying. I am not sure I can do today. I think I need a reset, I might be catastrphizing a bit, because it does suddenly feel like too much is going on and I'm so little. And I have faced a lot but I am so lost this month.

 

[NicoleMarie]

Hi! I am really struggling right now. I really need to be productive and I am deep in a depression wave. Some days are easier and others not. Started dental antibiotic too and that doesn't help, the mix with my other meds even on probiotic is rough, even if it helps. I'm also broke and trying to make the week on carb staples from what I have in my pantry and gathering enough for bread.

Started the antibiotic yesterday, so today is rough. Hoping I can write my daily achievements on here in hopes to get more done, maybe get support?
God knows, my view of myself and what I achieve right now is not too high. But I have to keep going so... here I am.
Made a gratitude log in my planner too. I'm going what I can. Taking a nap now but hope to return to the doing part after.

If anyone is feeling the same and want to share their wins that is cool too- let's do thing together!
Today I need to apply for jobs, design for my shop, do chores, workout and still mediate this foggy feeling that depression plus antibiotics give me. Right now I'm taking a break but will update today. Heppy day to everyone, hope we do good things today.

I’m sorry about the deep depression wave you are experiencing, but proud for you that you’re taking so many positive steps !! I struggle with anxiety a lot. It tells me “you’re safer on the couch” & for about a year I listened…until recently. For the last few weeks I walk about 20-40 minutes daily and my step count has gone up 4-5 times !! I’m so proud of myself when I feel a certain way but do what is good for me anyway, lol. Good luck on getting your desired tasks completed and thank you for sharing

 

[emily1890]

i suffer with incontinence, and it's actually pretty bad.

yesterday I went to a BBQ (last one of the season), and while I was eating my burgers had quite the bad accident

I knew I smelled, (I could smell myself even with the smell of BBQ food in the air), but I got up to go the bathroom, and no one batted an eyelid. usually it's a hot topic, people see it and immediately laugh or point

but once I was cleaned up I was even offered a ride home. that's my daily win...

 

[SeekingAfrica]

My day wasn't as productive as I'd like. Breaking through the fear of being evicted is like a wall I am trying to push through and I am only digging in a little bit. But I'm still here.

I am only working now. 15min at a time, with breaks, it's all I can handle. 1 laundry, some dishes, filing some documents.
BUT.... I was frozen in this big fear- utilities are here often under the landlords name almost exclusively when you rent (in my limited experience at least). So not only must I tell my landlord that the rent is going to be late but that the utilities I was supposed to pay 2 weeks ago are not yet paid. I was hoping by now I'd have income and she was on vacation. It's not a big deal, I've been late before, nothing is turned off... however... I've been late before so I was petrified her patience will run out. Still might.
Today I gathered the courage to tell her that I've been sick, and how my income has been. Agreed to pay utilities in a week. Didn't gather the courage to say I only know how to pay 1 out of 4 bills I have to. But at least she knows about the rent part, I have another week and I have not yet been evicted so I'd take that as a start. I was going to tell her last minute but it was killing me so I wrote her in chat now. SO wasn't the whole task, but a huge chunk of it. Proud (and shaky) about that.

but proud for you that you’re taking so many positive steps

Thank you! I need to be taking more and faster, but I'm trying to learn to live with the progress I'm making.

“you’re safer on the couch”

I know that feeling really well, especially lately. Thank you for sharing your experience, I will try to remember it for myself these days, couch has been a good friend right now... I was reading Atomic Habits before everything lately blew up in my face, maybe it's time to revisit.

my step count has gone up 4-5 times

So PROUD of you! That is amazing!

but once I was cleaned up I was even offered a ride home. that's my daily win...

PROUD of you too, that must have been an exhausting experience. Handling it without making it a big deal is actually huge!