Urge To Cut Is Back

[Heather]

The urge to NOT cut these days is such a struggle. My cat does this crazy thing where she curls around my leg and hugs me with her paws.

Just when I think it's safe she turns into a rabid raccoon. The other day she tried to gnaw my lower leg off. You should see the humungous scratch on the back of my leg......and it felt sooo GOOD. I don't need to cut myself with that little psycho walking around. She does the damage for me.

 

[Marie E.]

My God Heather, don't keep letting your cat help you, sorry I have to laugh about the cat.

Sh*t I cut myself on the thigh last night.

 

[Heather]

Marie!

I need to get that little sh*t brat cat declawed and you need to sweep your house clean of all sharp objects girlfriend!

We need to keep each other safe! ooh! I forgot to tell my therapist about this today when I saw him...oh well, top of my list for next time.

Promise me Marie NO MORE CUTTING!!!!!

HUGS HEATHER

 

[Marie E.]

*Sigh* I know this is lame sounding, but I can't promise, but I can promise to try! And yeah we should help each other.

 

[Heather]

Did you ever see Empire Strikes Back?

Yoda said, "Do or Do Not there is NO try"
It's a total excuse just to be able to upload this picture but you get my point. And my point is VALID!

 

[Marie E.]

*Deep Breaths* Ok, I will promise you Heather, no more excuses for my cutting. Thank You for your Support!!
(((Big Hugs!!)))

 

[Heather]

I LOVE YOU MARIE!!!!!!

HANG IN THERE.

okay. I'll do the same. I won't let Cocoa chew on my leg anymore no matter how good it might feel.

Hugs. Heather

 

[cherryblossom]

I haven't read this thread in it's entirety - but just wanted to 'confess' to my self harm yesterday - although I'm too ashamed to specify the details. No need to say, I'm suffering the consequences today - both mentally and physically. And my inability to cope means that my GP has signed me off work again (which is devastation for me). Yeah, I know I shouldn't be beating myself up over this, but I just can't help it....

 

[Heather]

HUGS C.B. You need lots and lots of hugs.

Hang in there.

 

[Heather]

Also, I'm sorry you're having such a rough time.

Take care of yourself the best way you know how. We're all here for you.

Hugs. Heather

 

[The Albatross]

I cut as a teen then tried asphyxia... then to drugs as a young person... then to alcohol. Then I had a near death experience and knew that I wanted to live.... self harming, or substance abuse or trying to die didn't do it. My body wants to live, it is smarter than I am (apparently). I have those urges now at times, but have learned to recognize them as "yellow flags" that something is rotten in Denmark, and I can turn my conscious thoughts and decisions toward change.

(((I hope you all are doing a better day, and am giving you all hugs right now)))

 

[blueangel371115]

I thought about it too. I confess. Visualized the whole thing. Wanted to. But I stopped myself.